And so I say... fuck it

I haven't published any fan fics in years. No updates, no one shots, nothing. There are several reasons for this. First, I'm lazy beyond belief. Second, I have a 2 year old and a 3 year old. Can you believe they expect me to feed them, and take care of them and chase after them (and on, and on, and on)? I mean, who do they think I am, their mother? Oh, yeah, right...

The third and biggest reason I haven't been posting anything is I've tried to learn from my mistakes. I had this one absolute pain in the ass reviewer back in the day always calling me out on plot holes and rushed timing and all this other stuff. I hated it. But now I look back and I'm soooo glad she did it. She was offering a true gift: constructive criticism. I've taken it to heart in a very good way. I don't know that I'll ever finish my Gilmore Girl fics. I love writing Saga and Vicious Trollops most. Saga is like my the one piece of writing I consider my literary baby. And VT is just fun! But the last season of GG killed my love of the show, and I don't know I'll be able to write for them.

I have been writing though. I have pages upon pages upon pages in my notebooks. I've moved twice since I was last a regular updater of fan fic, and I'm getting ready to move again (Japan!) and one of the few things that makes it through every move is my ever growing collection of notebooks filled with stories and plots and outlines and scenes.

When I do post something it'll be a Harry Potter fic. Starring Ginny Weasley. I have two or three that I've been working on a long time. The first has probably a 6 page detailed outline and at least 30 pages of other writing- misc scenes, general ideas, timelines, research, etc. The second will be the one I concentrate on actually writing. It has maybe 3 pages of outlines. Probably only 2 though. And many, many, many pages of research. It's a very unusual pairing, and has a rather complicated plot line at first. I'm so, so determined not to screw it up. I think if I can manage to pull it off, it will be my best story yet. But it could be easily rushed and ruined. I'm also paying more attention to the grammar on my newer writing (obviously not so much in my blogging! Ha!) and so that's taking more time, too.

But for all that I've learned and aspired over the last few years with my writing, I've realized if I wait for every single detail to fall into place in chapter 36 and re-edit chapter 1 a dozen times and do this and that... it'll never get posted. Ever. So... I think I'm just at some point going to go, "Fuck it" and upload the first chapter. I do not want to do this until I have several chapters post-ready yet though. I will NOT start posting another fic that I will not complete. This is my promise. If I start a new fic on ff.net you can be assured that I know EXACTLY how it's going to end, and I know very well how it's going to go through the whole story from my outlines.