Happy Halloween!

Hey everyone!

I hope you all have a Happy Halloween!

I haven't been writing, or doing much of anything actually lately. I have so much stuff going on, it's hard to find time to write. I haven't even watched GG lately. I saw the first two epis this season, and then I stopped watching. I'm glad L & C are together, but the show has lost something. I think it's Colin & Finn. A spark is gone. Then again, the show had spark before they were on it. I dunno. It's just... not GG anymore. Who knows. Maybe it got better, and I just haven't seen the good epis.

Anyways, I hope you all enjoy your candy. Have a great Halloween!

Silly Traditions That Change Your Life

I don't know whether my baby is a boy or girl. I should be able to find out December 14th. I'm rooting for a girl. At first I wanted a boy, but the more I think about it, the more freaked out I am about that! What do I know about boys? The way their minds work are frakkin mysteries! And bugs and camping? Eew. I think not. So, while my husband is begging God to give him a boy to play catch with, I'm visioning flowers and fairies... and Soap Operas.

I bet that last little bit... about Soaps... made you look twice, am I right? Well, read on and I shall explain.

I have watched General Hospital my entire life. By entire life, I mean I probably came out of the womb recognizing Luke and Laura Spencer's voices from my mother watching it. My first actual memory of GH was when I was about 5 years old. It was a wedding. Whose? Please, that was 15 years ago, like I remember that!

So, I grew up watching GH. I watched it with my aunt, and then my grandma. I even watched it with my mom when I moved back in with her. When my Goddaughter was a baby, I would have her watch it with me.

When I moved out of my moms at 17 and in with my best friend, we watched it together. She also grew up on it. As did her mother, who watched it with her mom.

To me, watching GH my whole life is a tradition I treasure a great deal. Perhaps it's why I write fan fiction in the first place. Because it's comfy. It's cozy. It reminds me of times when I would throw a pillow across the room in frustration, or laugh till I cry at another memory.

It's a tradition I want a little girl to share with. I want a sweet daughter to watch GH with. I want her to look back, in 20 some odd years, and say that watching soaps with her mom changed her life. It's a wonderful bonding time for girls to get together and cry, laugh, get pissed, or mourn together over close friends who are in their homes an hour a day, five days a week. Call me crazy, but I find it so cool to look over the past 10 years or so, and look the characters have grown, and look at how I've grown.

You're probably wondering why instead of constant blabbing about GG, it's about GH lately here. No, I'm not stopping watching GG or anything. I've been waiting 7 years for my favorite couple to get together. I'm 20. Almost 1/2 of my life has been spent pining for this couple to be together. And now, Liz and Jason are having a baby together. That's what makes it all worth it. Sticking through the lame plots, actor changes, and decades, just to watch your favorite couple get together.

That's why I want a little girl. I want to share a silly little tradition of watching General Hospital with her as we grow together. And someday, I want to watch it with my granddaughter.

Kelli

Hey, I left a comment at your LJ about what you wrote. I just wanted to let you know it was me, because LJ.com won't let me sign in.

Trying Something New

First, I want to thank Kelli and Joanne. You guys are so sweet! My hormones are so out of whack right now that I started tearing up when I read the comments! Thank you both! To be totally honest, I sort of still wish I were in school, but I know that there's no way I would manage that right now on top of everything. That, would simply be asking for a nervous breakdown, lol.

Now, I'm trying something new with my fics. I've been going back to my roots lately with fan fics- Soaps, specifically General Hospital- and I've realized a couple things.

First, I hate my writing. Honestly, I don't like anything I write these days. I have actually been working on my GG fics lately, but I end up deleting what I write. It's just a load of crap. I miss my old stule of writing. My old stuff was funny- okay, cheesy funny- and I miss that. I want to incorporate some of my old humor into my new stuff. How that's going to happen, I haven't a clue.

Second, just sitting in front of my computer and typing is no longer working. Why? Because I put too much thought into it. I spend hours pouring over notebooks and writing plots, outlines, and all kinds of stuff, and I don't like writing anymore. It's no fun that way. So... that brings me to my new idea.

Traditional Flash Fiction Hour. A flash fiction is a piece of work less than 2,000 words. Most of my chapters fall in that category. True, they're not flash fiction once I put it all together, but still, plotting a fraking novel isn't getting us anywhere, now is it my friends?

So, what I'll be doing to update most of my stories (obviouslly Saga won't be done this way, nor will Connving Trollops, cause that's just soooo much fin to plot with.) is I will take 1 hour and set it aside to devote to one fic. In that hour, I will write and write and write one chapter. I will do the editing, and I will post it within that hour. If it's absolute crap, well, at least it's something. Because I'm getting no where kids. I sit and I think about writing and I want to, but I just don't. And I hate that. And I hate that because of the stupid outlines I've made I do that to myself.

I commited the cardinal sin of real writing folks. I stopped writing for myself. Someone told me I was writing "wrong" by not making out outlines and the like, so I gave it a shot. I know it works wonders for some, but I'm not one of those people. I'll do what I always did in the past: I will make a story in my head, and type it out. And that'll be it, because I miss it.

Alright, I apalogise for any typos, the blog thing is being cranky and not typing up right. Sorry if my rambling makes you want to stick and apple in my mouth... err.. staple my fingers to make me shut up. LOL. I just thought you guys all deserved to know why nothing's been updated lately.

Need to update

Yeah, yeah, I know, I need to update. Things have just been so crazy. Morning sickness comes off and on, and I am constantly tired. Plus, I still haven't found my notebook.

But yes, I do know I need to update. I'm not sure what I'll update first, but I will update something soon.

In good news, I got an ultrasound, and my baby is doing great. It's little heart is beating just fine!

Bored and Sad and Lonely

My husband had to leave for training. :( So for the next month I'm once again left to my own devices to find things to do. I swear, by the time he gets home our house will be spotless! LOL. I'm just cleaning... and cleaning... and cleaning.

I want to write, but my heart just is not in it. I want to work on my original stuff, but I lost the notebook with all my notes in it.

Emily & Shira have really been swimming around in my head a lot. Maybe an evil, devious plot is just what I need to take my mind off of hubby.

Nothing much else is going on. Morning sickness sucks though. And it doesn't usually happen to me in the mornings.