Trying Something New

First, I want to thank Kelli and Joanne. You guys are so sweet! My hormones are so out of whack right now that I started tearing up when I read the comments! Thank you both! To be totally honest, I sort of still wish I were in school, but I know that there's no way I would manage that right now on top of everything. That, would simply be asking for a nervous breakdown, lol.

Now, I'm trying something new with my fics. I've been going back to my roots lately with fan fics- Soaps, specifically General Hospital- and I've realized a couple things.

First, I hate my writing. Honestly, I don't like anything I write these days. I have actually been working on my GG fics lately, but I end up deleting what I write. It's just a load of crap. I miss my old stule of writing. My old stuff was funny- okay, cheesy funny- and I miss that. I want to incorporate some of my old humor into my new stuff. How that's going to happen, I haven't a clue.

Second, just sitting in front of my computer and typing is no longer working. Why? Because I put too much thought into it. I spend hours pouring over notebooks and writing plots, outlines, and all kinds of stuff, and I don't like writing anymore. It's no fun that way. So... that brings me to my new idea.

Traditional Flash Fiction Hour. A flash fiction is a piece of work less than 2,000 words. Most of my chapters fall in that category. True, they're not flash fiction once I put it all together, but still, plotting a fraking novel isn't getting us anywhere, now is it my friends?

So, what I'll be doing to update most of my stories (obviouslly Saga won't be done this way, nor will Connving Trollops, cause that's just soooo much fin to plot with.) is I will take 1 hour and set it aside to devote to one fic. In that hour, I will write and write and write one chapter. I will do the editing, and I will post it within that hour. If it's absolute crap, well, at least it's something. Because I'm getting no where kids. I sit and I think about writing and I want to, but I just don't. And I hate that. And I hate that because of the stupid outlines I've made I do that to myself.

I commited the cardinal sin of real writing folks. I stopped writing for myself. Someone told me I was writing "wrong" by not making out outlines and the like, so I gave it a shot. I know it works wonders for some, but I'm not one of those people. I'll do what I always did in the past: I will make a story in my head, and type it out. And that'll be it, because I miss it.

Alright, I apalogise for any typos, the blog thing is being cranky and not typing up right. Sorry if my rambling makes you want to stick and apple in my mouth... err.. staple my fingers to make me shut up. LOL. I just thought you guys all deserved to know why nothing's been updated lately.