The end of a chapter in Life...

I just found out my ex-best friend is engaged. She was supposed to be my maid of honor. We lived together for almost a year. We were sisters, best friends, and room mates. Then, this guy she was seeing started to change her.

She stopped caring about a career. She stopped hanging out with her friends as much. If he didn't want her to do something, she wouldn't do it. She changed her hair for him. She changed her life for him. Finally, he didn't want us being friends. Some stuff happened and I cancelled my wedding and eloped.

Now, I find out she's marrying this ass! Seriously, what is it about a strong, independant, beautiful young woman that just causes her to give up everything and ruin her life? He controls her, and he ruined most of her friendships. What kind of a life is she going to have with him?

We had another friend in a similar situation and we constantly tried to make her see the light. I just don't understand how she can look in the mirror and go through with this sham...

She's not herself anymore, and that makes me sad.

It makes me sad to think about all the fun times we had together. Going to dinner together in China Town. Rooting for the Cubbies when we finally had a good season. Lighting fireworks off on the 4th of July. Taking pics together at Prom. Lying in bed and giggling for hours on Graduation night (technically early the next morning), remembering High School memories. Throwing a joint birthday party because our birthdays were so close together. Swimming in the summer. Throwing a cookout just cause we could. Going to a car show together. Calling up cute guys on Spring Break. Shoe shopping. Remodeling (badly) a bathroom on our own. Painting a room. Breaking down on the side of a road. Giggling when I got engaged. Planning my wedding. Watching Room Raiders. Singing (badly) and dancing around the house to Jessica Simpson. Sister bonding nights & the Princess Diaries 2. Sleepovers with our other friends. Trying to dye each others hair and having to go to the salon to get it fixed. Six flags. Chinese food. Teaching me to Parallel park for my driving test. Animal Farm. All memories of a friendship past.

She's one the few people who have seen me when I cried. She held me when I cried, and I did the same for her. We worked at the same place, we even went to the same church. We went to the same school. We lived in the same house. We were best friends, and we considered ourselves to be sisters.

And now, I find out she's engaged from someone else. So now, I put it behind me for good. I mourn the loss of one of the best friendships I've ever had, and I move on. I can't help but wonder if this is the end of a chapter of my life. Before, it was left open. But now, I think that chapter is truly closed. And now, I mourn and put it behind me. Because things change, people change. Life goes on and you can't live in the past. You have to live life as it comes or you'll miss out on something great.

I hope her life works out for her, but I'll never know. And honestly, I don't think I want to know. So goodbye Tri.