Rock Rose

And so I say... fuck it

2011-02-25T00:35:00.000-05:00

I haven't published any fan fics in years. No updates, no one shots, nothing. There are several reasons for this. First, I'm lazy beyond belief. Second, I have a 2 year old and a 3 year old. Can you believe they expect me to feed them, and take care of them and chase after them (and on, and on, and on)? I mean, who do they think I am, their mother? Oh, yeah, right...

The third and biggest reason I haven't been posting anything is I've tried to learn from my mistakes. I had this one absolute pain in the ass reviewer back in the day always calling me out on plot holes and rushed timing and all this other stuff. I hated it. But now I look back and I'm soooo glad she did it. She was offering a true gift: constructive criticism. I've taken it to heart in a very good way. I don't know that I'll ever finish my Gilmore Girl fics. I love writing Saga and Vicious Trollops most. Saga is like my the one piece of writing I consider my literary baby. And VT is just fun! But the last season of GG killed my love of the show, and I don't know I'll be able to write for them.

I have been writing though. I have pages upon pages upon pages in my notebooks. I've moved twice since I was last a regular updater of fan fic, and I'm getting ready to move again (Japan!) and one of the few things that makes it through every move is my ever growing collection of notebooks filled with stories and plots and outlines and scenes.

When I do post something it'll be a Harry Potter fic. Starring Ginny Weasley. I have two or three that I've been working on a long time. The first has probably a 6 page detailed outline and at least 30 pages of other writing- misc scenes, general ideas, timelines, research, etc. The second will be the one I concentrate on actually writing. It has maybe 3 pages of outlines. Probably only 2 though. And many, many, many pages of research. It's a very unusual pairing, and has a rather complicated plot line at first. I'm so, so determined not to screw it up. I think if I can manage to pull it off, it will be my best story yet. But it could be easily rushed and ruined. I'm also paying more attention to the grammar on my newer writing (obviously not so much in my blogging! Ha!) and so that's taking more time, too.

But for all that I've learned and aspired over the last few years with my writing, I've realized if I wait for every single detail to fall into place in chapter 36 and re-edit chapter 1 a dozen times and do this and that... it'll never get posted. Ever. So... I think I'm just at some point going to go, "Fuck it" and upload the first chapter. I do not want to do this until I have several chapters post-ready yet though. I will NOT start posting another fic that I will not complete. This is my promise. If I start a new fic on ff.net you can be assured that I know EXACTLY how it's going to end, and I know very well how it's going to go through the whole story from my outlines.

FML

2011-02-11T04:01:00.000-05:00

The husband and I spent a year- a FREAKING YEAR- searching for our perfect first home to own. And we found it. And we bought it.

Nine months later he’s in Afghanistan and it’s a few months before he’s supposed to return home.

The husband: “I got orders today.”

Me: “Oh God, not Lejeune, not Lejeune, not Lejeune,”

Him: We’re moving to Okinawa in July.

Me: That’s another fucking country.

And so then I laugh. A lot. Because I have a 250k+ mortgage on a house we bought only because we thought we’d be here another 18+ months and a huge freaking suv that’s not paid off, and a child with special needs that is still being diagnosed. And a cat. And another child. And so I laugh. A lot. I laugh until tears stream down my face because I’m broke because I’m paying off credit cards that I maxed out to update my house- that I won’t even be living in for long- and I don’t know what we’re going to do. I laugh so much my husband grows uncomfortable and doesn’t want to hang up even though he has to go and do warrish type things- things he’ll never tell me about, except for in small amounts on the rare nights our kids are in their own beds and he’ll explain the hell he’s been through (the hells he’s allowed to talk about… there’s so much he’ll never tell me) in barely there whispers… whispers I won’t ever repeat to a living or dying soul. And so he tells me he’ll call me after work, when I’m barely awake (that time change is a bitch) and make sure I’m okay.
I laugh more. Maniacally, he says. I tell him it’ll be fine. We’re always fine, right? It’ll be fine. But I’m scared. Because we just bought a house and the economy sucks ass. So he reluctantly hangs up and I go grab the bottle of wine I bought to make pasta sauce.

I drink strait from the bottle. And call my sister. Her words? “I told you so. Never buy something like that while you’re in the military.”

270k in the hole now, but thanks for the comforting words. Love you, too.

And so after half a bottle of wine, tears over my 3 year old still not having a proper diagnosis and me refusing to leave SoCal until he’s diagnosed and me being, well, let’s face it- completely fucking broke once we’re all said and done- I hang up.

And text my bff. She’s a former Marine wife. She knows shit. She knows deployments, and kids, and life. She’s real. And there. And she’s fucking stunned with me. And laughs because it’s shocking I’m drinking at all (with an abusive alcoholic mother I’m not found of drinking in excess, but hell. Tonight I’ll make an exception) and tries to make me see the bright side. Sure, I’m fucked financially. Sure, I’ll be broke for a while. But hey… I’ll see Japan!

So tonight, I’ll bitch, and I’ll cry, and I’ll write this. And then tomorrow I’ll pop a pill for my hangover and be the hardass military wife I’m used to being. And you won’t see me cry when the love of my life deploys. And you’ll see me shrugging like it’s no big deal when my three year old doesn’t talk even though he used to, and no one knows what’s wrong with him. And you won’t know that I’m freaking out inside because I’m scared and don’t know what’s going to happen.

But tonight? Tonight I can be dizzy and drunk and cry and admit that it’s not okay that my husband is always fucking gone taking care of our country but I miss him and that it’s not okay that we’re always fucking moving and that it’s not okay that I’ll be leaving all my friends behind. I know that seven years ago I made vows and I was making them to the Corp just as much as I was to my husband. I accept it. I’ll deal with it. With a smile, even.

But I’m entitled to one night of regret every now and then.

Happy New Year!

2011-01-04T02:07:00.000-05:00

It's 2011 already? I'll be quoting my youngest on this, "Oh geez!". Seriously, where did time go? It's insane.

I made my annual NYR's. Hopefully I'll stick with them this year. Maybe. Hopefully. It could happen. I suppose. Oh well, in the words of Mark Twain, "Now is the accepted time to make your regular annual good resolutions. Next week you can begin paving hell with them as usual." Sounds about right to be.

Ah, well, I hope 2011 got off to a good start for you all. It certainly did for me. I was cuddling with my 3 year old and enjoying a glass of merlot.

New fic excerpt

2010-12-26T21:44:00.000-05:00

So, I've mentioned I've been into Harry Potter lately. I've been working on a couple fics- which center around Ginny as she is my favorite- and finally decided to post a short excerpt from one of them. I think this fic will most likely be called Ginny's Awakening. It won't be a long one at all. Enjoy.

Hermione dropped the book on Ginny’s bed before scurrying after the boys as they left to go talk about things that Ginny obviously wasn’t important enough to be informed of. With nothing better to do, Ginny picked up the book and began flipping through it.

She would never forget the images and words that assaulted her. She knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that she would never be able to think of muggles the same way again. Her father, the advocate of all things muggle had never told her about this. Muggle studies certainly never taught it. And Dumbledore, when he made speeches about unity, never told them to unite against muggles. No, it was quite the opposite.

Tom had shown her a lot in the time she spent with him in her first year. Most of it was bad. She had nightmares for months afterward. But nothing, nothing she had ever seen in her life compared to what she was looking at.

In her hands was a book on the second muggle World War. With pictures, timelines, descriptions and more horrific details than she could imagine.

And they called Death Eaters dark?

Happy Holidays and a little update

2010-12-26T20:54:00.000-05:00

Hello all! I hope everyone had a great Christmas or if you don't celebrate it, just a great Saturday.

One of my NYR's is to write more. So hopefully you'll see more things from me in 2011 than you did in 2010. I'm thinking of changing blogs. I miss going by my ff name. So we shall see.

I have a Tumblr account now and I'm trying to get the hang of that. We'll see.

Oh, my darling muse, how you've come back!

2010-10-26T11:57:00.004-04:00

My muse is back.

After taking a very, very long vacation, he's been dropping by for a quick visit here and there. And so, I've spent the last year working on a fic. Well, a couple fics. Not a dozen, but just a few. But one is at the front of the line.

Somehow, after spending an entire year working primarily on one fic, I've managed to not complete a single chapter. But there is good news! I have an outline made. Yes, an outline. Something I don't think I've ever done in such detail for a single story. Ever.

I also have snippets and cookies completed. The outline is not complete yet. I've been doing quite a bit of research for this fic. I've been dreaming of it, thinking of it, planning for it.

It's an AU Harry Potter fic that centers heavily on Ginny. It also has loads and loads of yummy Theo Nott. Le sigh. And that's all you're getting out of me.

I hope to complete the outline and have several chapters written by January, when I hope to start posting. Hopefully.

And now, I must go downstairs and finish making potato skins for the costume party I'm taking my children to.

Hello Again

2009-05-18T01:22:00.002-04:00

It has been a very, very long time since I've last updated this blog. My life has changed in many, many ways. My writing has also changed. I took some time away from fan fics and let myself grow as a person and a writer. I've dabbled with fics here and there, but for the most part I've simply put writing on the back burner.

Lately though, I've felt that desire to write sneak up on me. I take my sons for walks around the neighborhood and find myself running various plots and possibilities through my mind. I find myself creating dialogues with my characters even though they don't have stories to go in yet. All of that leaves me just one solution: I must start writing again.

I have a two-shot angst-ridden Rogan planned. I have (7 part?) Trory in the works that I've been mentally writing since 2005. It refuses to be ignored any longer.

I also feel the urge to go rip apart my walk in closet and find my old notebooks with original plots and characters... stories that are mine and not just me playing Barbie with someone else's art. I'm not promising any updates this week or the next, or even the next. But I will be back with new works. Soon.

Finally

2007-09-01T15:43:00.001-04:00

It's been forever! I finally got a new chapter out. It was way too short, but BBB now has a chapter 13. Let's see if chapter 14 will come out in less than a year, shall we?

I really am sorry I don't update, but I just don't have any inspiration for GG these days, and with a husband in Iraq and a 3 month old (who is teething) to take care of by myself I get kind of busy and fan fic isn't at the top of my to-do list anymore. Plus, I'm starting up my own business, so I'll be busy for some time to come, and I'm getting into writing General Hospital fics now... so... who knows.

Anyway, if you're a Trory fan, enjoy BBB chapter 13!

Hey

2007-05-25T18:28:00.000-04:00

Wow, hey everyone. So it's been several months since I last posted.

Well, I had my baby on May 10th. He is an adorable little one. He weighed 8 pounds 9 ounces, and I went through 33 hours of all natural back labor. I'm already planning on scheduling a c section for the next one, cause there is no way I'm going through that again.

Anyway, my computer died. So, I had to buy a laptop. I lost some of my writing I was working on that for whatever reason didn't have backed up. I think I had a lot of Hidden Past done, but lost it. My thumb drive with my other stories is acting screwy right now.

I actually have inspiration again to write, but I have very little time to work on writing with a 2 week old to take care of. Maybe once we get into a routine I'll be able to start writing again occasionally.

Motherhood has honestly been the most amazing, inspiring, wonderful thing that's ever happened to me before. The bond between my son and I is unlike one I ever thought could exist.

Well, I intended to write more, but the little guy is waking up now. Later everyone!

Merry Christmas!

2006-12-25T22:38:00.000-05:00

I hope each and every single one of you have a very merry Christmas.

As my Christmas present to you all, I wrote a one shot Trory. I didn't use the prompt I gave myself, but I was running out of time- and ideas.

I didn't take time to edit it, and honestly, I didn't even reread it. I'm not sure how good it is- it's the first thing I've written in a long time.

It's called A Christmas Wish.

Quick Update

2006-12-24T21:03:00.000-05:00

Alright, I started a Trory Christmas fic, and got half through it, and stopped. Then I started writing another one. Half through it, I stopped. I will try, try, try to get one written by tomorrow night. I'm honestly trying here, but after having not written in so long I am rusty.

If worst comes to worst, I'll write a song fic. I don't like writing them, but I'll do what I have to to make sure it gets done. Just wanted to give you all an update.

Great Song

2006-12-19T12:32:00.000-05:00

I just wanted to mention a really, really great song. It's called "I Just Came Back From War" and it's by Darryl Worley. Listen to it sometime. It's really, really great.

It's a BOY!

2006-12-14T16:43:00.000-05:00

Hey everyone! I just had my 20 week ultrasound today. It's a boy! His name is Logan Cole.

Anyway, he's a healthy, energetic little one that I can hardly wait to have!

I'll get the one shot done before Christmas. It'll probably be a Trory.

A Christmas Present

2006-12-05T15:12:00.000-05:00

I have decided to give all my faithful, wonderful readers a Christmas present.

I will warn you, the one shot will be different than my usual stuff. I'll be using a promt for it. I'm actually looking forward to this! The promt I would use is located beside the pairing.

So... what will it be?

A Trory? Prompt: "Reindeer antlers poke"

PDLD? Prompt: "4 foot stockings"

Balcony Buddy? Prompt: "Mrs. Clause and Apple Tarts"

Rogan? Prompt: "Trim my tree"

Marty/Rory? (friendship only) Prompt: "When the elves come out to play"

Cory? Prompt: "Light up ties and mistletoe"

Come on, you decide!

Let me know what pairing you guys want, and I'll write a holiday one shot for you guys!

Hey everyone!

2006-12-03T11:48:00.000-05:00

Sorry for the lack of updates. Eek. To be honest, I haven't written anything in a really long time. I rarely read and GG fan fics anymore. Just a few of the ones I read before. I've lost all inspiration for all things GG. This season... I just hate it! I think I've watched three or four epis this season, and what I have seen I'm not liking. At all.

Is it just me or is this season incredibly bland compared to before? I don't really like the changes they're making in Rory. Add that in with the way they're setting Chris up to have his heart broken, and I'm just so annoyed! No to mention those stupid Aerie girls. I prefer to watch a swiffer sweeper commercial than listen to them blab on.

On a more personal note, my husband is finally home. For a few months, lol. Getting ready for baby is keeping me busy. I'm trying to make everything perfect for the baby... lol... and add in my hormones and I get a TAD bit ...crazy. LOL.

As for fics, the only one I'm still truly interested in writing is Saga. Oh, and Needing You has a big chance of being updated once I finally get around to it. I could see me working on BBB and Hidden Past, too. I'm pretty bored with Solutions (possibly because I see how different this season is from what I hoped). I can't remember the others right now.

Thanks to my concerned poster for reminding me to post here!

Happy Halloween!

2006-10-31T13:27:00.000-05:00

Hey everyone!

I hope you all have a Happy Halloween!

I haven't been writing, or doing much of anything actually lately. I have so much stuff going on, it's hard to find time to write. I haven't even watched GG lately. I saw the first two epis this season, and then I stopped watching. I'm glad L & C are together, but the show has lost something. I think it's Colin & Finn. A spark is gone. Then again, the show had spark before they were on it. I dunno. It's just... not GG anymore. Who knows. Maybe it got better, and I just haven't seen the good epis.

Anyways, I hope you all enjoy your candy. Have a great Halloween!

Silly Traditions That Change Your Life

2006-10-15T09:11:00.000-04:00

I don't know whether my baby is a boy or girl. I should be able to find out December 14th. I'm rooting for a girl. At first I wanted a boy, but the more I think about it, the more freaked out I am about that! What do I know about boys? The way their minds work are frakkin mysteries! And bugs and camping? Eew. I think not. So, while my husband is begging God to give him a boy to play catch with, I'm visioning flowers and fairies... and Soap Operas.

I bet that last little bit... about Soaps... made you look twice, am I right? Well, read on and I shall explain.

I have watched General Hospital my entire life. By entire life, I mean I probably came out of the womb recognizing Luke and Laura Spencer's voices from my mother watching it. My first actual memory of GH was when I was about 5 years old. It was a wedding. Whose? Please, that was 15 years ago, like I remember that!

So, I grew up watching GH. I watched it with my aunt, and then my grandma. I even watched it with my mom when I moved back in with her. When my Goddaughter was a baby, I would have her watch it with me.

When I moved out of my moms at 17 and in with my best friend, we watched it together. She also grew up on it. As did her mother, who watched it with her mom.

To me, watching GH my whole life is a tradition I treasure a great deal. Perhaps it's why I write fan fiction in the first place. Because it's comfy. It's cozy. It reminds me of times when I would throw a pillow across the room in frustration, or laugh till I cry at another memory.

It's a tradition I want a little girl to share with. I want a sweet daughter to watch GH with. I want her to look back, in 20 some odd years, and say that watching soaps with her mom changed her life. It's a wonderful bonding time for girls to get together and cry, laugh, get pissed, or mourn together over close friends who are in their homes an hour a day, five days a week. Call me crazy, but I find it so cool to look over the past 10 years or so, and look the characters have grown, and look at how I've grown.

You're probably wondering why instead of constant blabbing about GG, it's about GH lately here. No, I'm not stopping watching GG or anything. I've been waiting 7 years for my favorite couple to get together. I'm 20. Almost 1/2 of my life has been spent pining for this couple to be together. And now, Liz and Jason are having a baby together. That's what makes it all worth it. Sticking through the lame plots, actor changes, and decades, just to watch your favorite couple get together.

That's why I want a little girl. I want to share a silly little tradition of watching General Hospital with her as we grow together. And someday, I want to watch it with my granddaughter.

Kelli

2006-10-15T09:10:00.000-04:00

Hey, I left a comment at your LJ about what you wrote. I just wanted to let you know it was me, because LJ.com won't let me sign in.

Trying Something New

2006-10-13T03:38:00.000-04:00

First, I want to thank Kelli and Joanne. You guys are so sweet! My hormones are so out of whack right now that I started tearing up when I read the comments! Thank you both! To be totally honest, I sort of still wish I were in school, but I know that there's no way I would manage that right now on top of everything. That, would simply be asking for a nervous breakdown, lol.

Now, I'm trying something new with my fics. I've been going back to my roots lately with fan fics- Soaps, specifically General Hospital- and I've realized a couple things.

First, I hate my writing. Honestly, I don't like anything I write these days. I have actually been working on my GG fics lately, but I end up deleting what I write. It's just a load of crap. I miss my old stule of writing. My old stuff was funny- okay, cheesy funny- and I miss that. I want to incorporate some of my old humor into my new stuff. How that's going to happen, I haven't a clue.

Second, just sitting in front of my computer and typing is no longer working. Why? Because I put too much thought into it. I spend hours pouring over notebooks and writing plots, outlines, and all kinds of stuff, and I don't like writing anymore. It's no fun that way. So... that brings me to my new idea.

Traditional Flash Fiction Hour. A flash fiction is a piece of work less than 2,000 words. Most of my chapters fall in that category. True, they're not flash fiction once I put it all together, but still, plotting a fraking novel isn't getting us anywhere, now is it my friends?

So, what I'll be doing to update most of my stories (obviouslly Saga won't be done this way, nor will Connving Trollops, cause that's just soooo much fin to plot with.) is I will take 1 hour and set it aside to devote to one fic. In that hour, I will write and write and write one chapter. I will do the editing, and I will post it within that hour. If it's absolute crap, well, at least it's something. Because I'm getting no where kids. I sit and I think about writing and I want to, but I just don't. And I hate that. And I hate that because of the stupid outlines I've made I do that to myself.

I commited the cardinal sin of real writing folks. I stopped writing for myself. Someone told me I was writing "wrong" by not making out outlines and the like, so I gave it a shot. I know it works wonders for some, but I'm not one of those people. I'll do what I always did in the past: I will make a story in my head, and type it out. And that'll be it, because I miss it.

Alright, I apalogise for any typos, the blog thing is being cranky and not typing up right. Sorry if my rambling makes you want to stick and apple in my mouth... err.. staple my fingers to make me shut up. LOL. I just thought you guys all deserved to know why nothing's been updated lately.

Need to update

2006-10-08T21:18:00.000-04:00

Yeah, yeah, I know, I need to update. Things have just been so crazy. Morning sickness comes off and on, and I am constantly tired. Plus, I still haven't found my notebook.

But yes, I do know I need to update. I'm not sure what I'll update first, but I will update something soon.

In good news, I got an ultrasound, and my baby is doing great. It's little heart is beating just fine!

Bored and Sad and Lonely

2006-10-03T00:15:00.000-04:00

My husband had to leave for training. :( So for the next month I'm once again left to my own devices to find things to do. I swear, by the time he gets home our house will be spotless! LOL. I'm just cleaning... and cleaning... and cleaning.

I want to write, but my heart just is not in it. I want to work on my original stuff, but I lost the notebook with all my notes in it.

Emily & Shira have really been swimming around in my head a lot. Maybe an evil, devious plot is just what I need to take my mind off of hubby.

Nothing much else is going on. Morning sickness sucks though. And it doesn't usually happen to me in the mornings.

Updates

2006-09-22T01:48:00.000-04:00

Alright, with the news I posted in my previous post, I'm now back into GG mode.

I spent 4 hours hooking my digital cable up to my DVD Recorder, and Hallelujah, it works!

I am dying to write the next chapter of Conniving Trollops. It's been far too long since I spent some time plotting with Shira & Emily.

P.S. - What do you think of the orange instead of green text? Preferences?

OH MY GOD! OH MY GOD! OH MY GOD!

2006-09-22T01:42:00.000-04:00

Okay, I just heard a GG spoiler. One that will have me watching the show this season, just to see if it's true. It's not a confirmed spoiler, it could just be something to divert crazy fans like myself, but I HOPE IT IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok......... Don't read on unless you want to hear a possible spoiler (right now it's a spumor: spoiler/rumor.)
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Ok, ready?

Lorelai & Chris elope!!!!!!!!!!

Like I said, it's not confirmed, but there's big talk of it at AA! (Crosses fingers, grabs the purple haired troll and a lucky rabits foot while rubbing a magic lamp... please be true!)

I HATE the CW!

2006-09-20T21:59:00.000-04:00

GRRR. Ok, they seriously want ratings? They want viewers to remain loyal? Puh-lease. They are making my life difficult! The CW here is channel 911. It is only available on digital cable.

I have digital cable, but most of the time it's not hooked up. I usually keep my dvd recorder hooked up instead, where I can still watch cable, but not the digital channels (even though I pay for them). I find out tonight to watch the CW at all I have to unhook my dvd recorder and rehook the box, (then usually call the cable company and have them boot my box since it's been down for so long.) It's not worth it!

This sucks! I am so pissed. Why can't it be on a regular channel? There is nothing I want to watch that badly on tv these days.

Random Babble

2006-09-19T04:21:00.000-04:00

What is a blog for if not the random babble of the blogger? I realize I haven't given a substantial update in quite a while. Sorry for that.

I've thought a lot about my writing. I miss it. I'm just really busy doing a lot of nothing these days. Sounds contradictory? Well, yes, but it's true.

Someone once reviewed one of my stories and said something along the lines of I wasn't a real author unless I made an outline of my story before I began to write. That outraged me at the time. Now, I look back and reflect. Yeah, it still pisses me off. But outines are helpful. I have a tendency of making stories and then writing as I go. Thus, I'm left in the middle of a story with no idea where the hell I'm going. But hey, for me, it's half the fun.

The only story I am 110% sure where it is exactly going (and we're talking absouletely sure here, people, all the way down to the final scene of the final chapter) is Saga. Ironic, isn't it? I've spent so much time brainstorming on it that it has become my baby. I have notebooks filled with ideas for it. I know what's going to happen. Yet I can't find the time to update. And I know why. Because I know where I am going (and how I'm going to get there) I want to take my time to write. I won't settle for anything less with it. The entire story up till the last chapter where Lola and Michael meet was just the intro. My dear friends, this story began with the long chapter. It may only have like 4 (?) or 5 (?) more chapters, but they are long.

Anyways, I guess my babble bubbles down to this: Writing comes in all ways. Who is to say someone isn't a writer just because they don't go through a certain process? Different things work for different people.

To those few souls who still read this between my sporadic (at best) updates: Bless you. ;)

Awww...

2006-09-18T00:07:00.000-04:00

So, I watched the last minutes of the WB. They had the frog and the WB light, and they had the light go out and then the text came on the screen and it said:

Thanks For Watching.

And then that was it. It's over. How sad. Oh well.

Good Bye WB

2006-09-17T23:45:00.000-04:00

Sad, sad day this is. In about 20 minutes the WB will be no more. I'll miss it. I'm really not to sure about the new CW. I guess we'll find out in the coming weeks if it can replace the WB or not.

Writing & Inspiration

2006-09-17T01:18:00.000-04:00

No updates yet. But oh my God! I am actually thinking about Saga. I miss it! I love it! I can't wait to write it again!

I'm batting around an idea for BBB, but if I go that way you will all hunt me down and throw tomatoes at me. But it's a really good idea... I don't know if I'm going to go with it or not.

I want to work on my original stuff, but I've lost my notes. Grrr. So once I find them I'll start typing.

Blah... Morning Sickness

2006-09-11T12:00:00.000-04:00

It doesn't just happen in the mornings. Yuck. As soon as I hit the 6 week mark of this pregnancy the morning sickness hit. And it stayed.

I would attempt to write a new chapter of something, but really, with the rolling in my stomach I don't think that's going to happen yet.

I have not given up my writing. I'm just really busy these days.

Well... I'll soon have time to write

2006-09-02T14:34:00.000-04:00

So, I just found out my husband has to go to California for training at the end of this month. He'll be gone for over a month. And for the second year of our two year marriage, he'll be gone on our wedding anniversary, thanks to the Marines. Oh, well.

At least I'll have time to write. Who knows, I may even have a chance to write a new chapter for Saga! God, I would love that.

I am batting around an idea for the next chapter of BBB. I'm just having trouble putting it together.

I'm Done

2006-08-31T00:13:00.000-04:00

I'm done with Gilmore Girls. Done, through, finite. No more.

I've read the spoilers for this upcoming season, and I don't like them. At all.

That sounds really immature, but I just don't like the direction that the show is going. God, I honestly never thought I'd say this about Gilmore Girls. I've been a loyal viewer since it started, and now the time has come when I'm done. Sad. It really, truly is.

I've just read so many disappointing spoilers that I don't want to keep watching and see my #1 fav show be butchered.

Yeah, I'll complete my fics. Nothing can take away the previous seasons. Nothing.

I just won't be watching this new season. At all.

Sooo much is happening!

2006-08-28T14:30:00.000-04:00

Wow... the past 6 days have been insane.

Tuesday I had my wreck. My car ended up being totalled. Later that night I took a home pregnancy test and got a yes.

This weekend I bought a new car and today I withdrew from school.

Geesh! Soooo much is happening all at once.

Anyways, I'll try to work on my fics some now that I'm home most of the time.

Fucking Hell

2006-08-22T08:19:00.000-04:00

I was in a 4 car wreck this morning. Grrrr.

We were stopped behind a few other cars because someone was making a left hand turn. All of a sudden, we're rear-ended! That caused us to roll forward and hit the car in front of us, who then hit the car in front of them. Damn.

The guy who hit us was going 55 in a 35 mph SCHOOL ZONE.

Nice, huh?

Ours was the only one with damage. We can't drive it. So, we have no car. So hubby is getting rides for the next 3-4 weeks (yes, there's that much damage- thank God for full coverage!), and I'm withdrawing from school. At this point, I have no other choice but to do so.

So now I get to sell my books to other students, and try to return my $118 graphing calculator.

This totally sucks.

The weird thing is, this weekend my cousin was in a bad wreck that totalled his car.

Things always happen in 3's in my family. I can't help but wonder who's next.

Plagerism

2006-08-18T22:41:00.000-04:00

Plagiarizing is defined by dictionary.com as:

1. To use and pass off (the ideas or writings of another) as one's own.

2. To appropriate for use as one's own passages or ideas from (another).

I think everyone obviously knows not to steal actual passages from others, but did you realize it was also ideas? Think before you take.

That was the little blurb I have added to both my fp.com and ff.net profiles. It is frustrating to work hard to make a story original in its own right and see a story a few days later that is VERY similar to yours. Yes, it could be a coincidence, but when the storylines and plots basically follows your story, it gets kind of obvious it isn't a coincidence.

With fan fic this is harder to call out, because you're already borrowing someone else characters. I have seen 2 fics very similar to one of mine. The first one I saw had a bunch of people review, and only one person called the writer out on the fact that it was similar.

I figured, okay, coincidence, whatever.

The second one is much more recent. I haven't seen it in a few weeks, but it is really pissing me off. When I started the fic I'm talking about it was the only one of its kind. I had added a special little twist that no one else had. It was my original idea. Now, I look and I see another fic with the same idea. Okay, no big.

But then I read it. And the sequence of events is eerily similar to mine. To me, when there are only 3-4 chapters, and about 60% or more follows almost exactly the same events my fic does, it tells me something. It tells me that the person is too uncreative, too stupid, or too lazy to think up their own ideas, so they feel the need to steal mine.

I don't expect no one else to write similar things. Hell, I'm talking about fan fic. We all borrow the same characters. But it's another thing when you spend hours thinking up ways to create your own piece of art and mold it your own special way, only to have someone take that SAME EXACT IDEA!

And guess what? That, my friends, is plagerism.

Now, I'm not going to say which fic idea has been ripped off. I'm not going to say who the other writers are that did it.

What I am saying is that if you take someone elses idea's (and I'm not talking about seeing an idea and twisitng it to make it your own- I'm talking about taking the same damn storyline and everything) you are an uncreative idiot. You are a thief. Above all, you are a plagerizer.

So please people- Think before you take!

Did You Know?

2006-08-18T13:11:00.000-04:00

Did you know that in 2005 the word fan fiction was added to dictionary.com? Yep, it's true.

I just thought that was kinda cool.

School is SOOOO hard!

2006-08-18T00:55:00.000-04:00

I started school this week.

Already, I have a paper due tomorrow, 125 math problems assigned (which I don't even know if I'm doing correctly!) and several other assignments.

Dear Lord was I out of my mind when I signed up for 6 classes?

College Algebra.

American History 2.

Sociology.

Developmental Psychology.

Interpersonal Communications.

Spanish.

This semester is 3 days in, and already kicking my ass.

Wonderful, huh?

Now, on to my next rant: The cost of TextBooks!

The school is constantly using new editions. Well, that's just fine & dandy, but how much has changed about Spanish in the past year that forces me to spend $144 on a book? I mean, come on! If it were any type of science course I would have no problem. But Spanish? The language hasn't changed in a LONG time... I'm pretty sure using an older edition of text books would not have made a big difference in the long run.

The college has a book buy back program. What a frikkin joke. Honestly, if I pay $130 for a book and they offer me $35 for it, I would rather it set on my shelf collecting dust. So that's what my old books are doing. Collecting dust.

Anyways, this is end of rant. No updates for a while. School is killer.

New chapter of BBB!

2006-08-16T01:45:00.000-04:00

Chapter 12 is up!

I hope Rory doesn't come across as a huge bitch. This is kind of a turning point in the story. I am not going to give things away, but I'm just going to say that it's important that Tristan was there to witness what happened.

Also, I know in the beginning of the story Rory was kind of a bitch, and I wanted to maintain that for the most part... for now. It all ties into the grand scheme of the story line.

Anyways, I start classes later today, so I don't know how updating will go. I'll try not to take a long time, but no promises. My priority for fics is to get the next chappy of Hidden Past up.

Updates...

2006-08-13T23:42:00.000-04:00

Yeah, yeah, yeah... so I'm late with my updates. Again.

Really, did you expect me to actually follow my self-set deadline for a change?

I haven't started the next chapter of Hidden Past. I had a TERRIFIC idea for it, but my brain has blanked. Oh well, I'll figure something out. I'll try writing it tomorrow, otherwise It'll be another three months. The longer I let my writing set untouched the longer it takes me to get back into it.

BBB is going marvelously! I absolutely love working on it! I have started the next chapter, and I'm having sooooooo much fun with it.

I really, really want to start working on my original stories, but I want to finish some of my fan fics first. I have 2 sequels to current fics to start after I finish my fics, and after that, it's it. I don't see me starting anymore fics for a while. I plan to finish each and every single one that is currently up at ff.net, and then write a sequel to Hidden Past, and a sequel to Always There. There's a fic stewing in my computer... it has been for a while. It's a GG crossover. I don't know if I'll ever post it. Maybe if I finish it then I'll post it. Who knows.

I do know I'm DYING to work on my own stories. I have probably 13 that are dying to be written. Probably 8-10 are series.

Anyways, that's all for now folks!

BBB is Updated!

2006-08-10T13:20:00.000-04:00

Yes! I have updated BBB!

Enjoy the chapter guys!

Next chapter of BBB is on the way!

2006-08-10T10:11:00.000-04:00

I am about 1/3 through the next chapter of BBB. I really want to focus more on the Lorelai/ Rory not talking and such. Don't worry, Tristan will be very involved with that.

I am soooo glad to be updating my fics again! I also started the next chapter of Always There, but that won't be up yet. I need to figure a couple things out with it. I think this is the last, or next to last chapter of it. I know exactly how I'm going to end it. There will be a sequel. The sequel will not be all happy and hearts and flowers. Think angst. I came up with the idea, and I was like, that will work! A couple of my readers actually made an incorrect assumption and gave me this idea.

Saga is officially on hiatus. That does not mean it won't be finished! The problem with Saga is I can NOT just write a page and then stop. It's got very long chapters from this point on, and it takes a few whole DAYS of sitting and doing nothing but writing it. I don't have the time because of school, and I don't have the chance because I have a husband. My husband is going back to Iraq no later than the spring, and possibly this fall. So, when he's gone I'll write it. Sorry, it's just way too much.

Hidden Past is going to have at least one more update while I'm out of school this week. I really, really want to just crunch these chapters out and finish it. It's soooo close to being done!

Alright, there's the scoop on the ones for now. I know I have tons of other fics, and fear not, I'll update them, but I'm pacing myself so I'll actually write something.

Hidden Past has been Updated!

2006-08-09T18:52:00.000-04:00

I posted the latest chapter of Hidden Past! I'm SO SORRY it took me almost 3 months to get it out. On the bright side, I'm hoping to finish it soon. I should have another chapter out this week.

Guess what's Stewing in my Computer!

2006-08-09T17:57:00.000-04:00

Come on, guess! Please?

Ok, I'll tell you- the next chapter of Hidden Past!

It's heavy on the Jake/ Rory- it's the last chapter that will be heavy on the Jory- and I just want to add a bit of someone else... not sure who yet, to lighten things up, and then I'll post it!

After this chapter, it's all Rogan!

But, this chapter sets up the sequel- which, btw, will be Jory! Yay!

Last final tomorrow!

2006-08-01T21:35:00.000-04:00

I am sooo excited! My last final is tomorrow. Wish me luck. I have a week and a half off school, so maybe I'll get to update something then.

Explanations

2006-07-28T13:04:00.000-04:00

Alright, so I suppose I owe you all explanations as to why I've been MIA lately.

First, I have finals. Two more, and I'm done. Then I start school again the 15th.

Second, and most important, I have things going on in my personal life. My husband is going back to Iraq next year, possibly for a year, and I'm dealing with that. We're trying to have a baby right now, so I feel really... rushed, lol... because of the timing and all.

So, I hope you all understand that my fics just aren't at the top of my priorities list right now. I am not giving up my writing, I will eventually complete all my fics! I just need some time right now.

Maybe I'll have time to write during the two weeks off school, but I'm making no promises.

Thanks for understanding.

New Poem

2006-07-22T16:00:00.000-04:00

I wrote a poem for a project at school. I thought I'd share it with you guys. It's called Surrender. It's about cutting.

Hey!

2006-07-18T08:17:00.000-04:00

Wow, long time no post (at least for me).

School is massively killing me right now. The semester is over on the 2nd, Thank God! Then I don't start school until the 15th.

I'm not sure if I'll be able to get a chapter out before the end of the semester. During the two weeks I have off school between semesters I'll work on my writing.

I'll be tying up loose ends for Always There. Yes, there's a sequel. No, it won't be started right away.

I'll be going over my fics and deciding which ones are within finishing distance, and try to finish those. I see Always There and Hidden Past being (hopefully) finished for sure.

I really wish I could commit to getting at least a chapter out a week, but I really do have to make school my priority. I do promise though that I will not quit writing my fan fics. There will be no unfinished fics.

As for Saga, I really wouldn't hold my breath for that one being completed anytime soon. With school and my husband I just don't have time to sit down and write 20-30 page chapters, and I refuse to write shorter chapters or crappy quality. Saga is my baby. It's my favorite to write because it delves so deeply into the characters lives. A lot of people don't like it because it's not a Rogan even though it's Rory and Logan centered. My husband is supposed to go to combat training in November. I know it's a while off, but that will really be the soonest I forsee having time to sit for three days strait and work on only that fic. I'll have a few days off school then, and he'll be gone, so that should work.

Anyways, if you guys can just hold out a few more weeks I'll be able to update things.

Thanks for being so patient.

School... School... School... (And an explanation for lack of updates)

2006-07-13T00:14:00.000-04:00

So, I've got my schedule set up for fall semester. It took my academic advisor and I 40 minutes to agree on it. LOL. I'm usually out of there in 10.

So, by changing my major to Psych I'm dumping added courses onto my already heavy load. I am taking 20 hours this fall. Ugh.

Math
Spanish
Interpersonal Communications
Developmental Psych
Socialogy
PE
American History 2

Did I mention that to get my GPA back up I can get no less than a B? In anything. Ever! I had a 4.0 when I transferred there last fall. Then I screwed around and brought it down to a 2.5 or 2.6.

So now, I have until Spring to bring it up to a 3.25. I'm not thrilled.

Then, this Spring I need to take:

Spanish 2
English Literature
?Com (Not sure, but possibly)
Living Science course
Math

I think I have one additional class to add, but I'm not sure what it is. Then in the summer I may take Stats and go back in the fall. UGH.

I start school at 8 a.m. and I get out around noon. Monday through Friday. I figure what I'll do is grab lunch at school around noon, then head over to the tutoring center for math help (cause Lord knows I'll need it!) and stick around till my math work is done. Then, I'll go on base and study at the library until my husband is off work (around 4:30) and go home, eat, clean house, and maybe study a bit more.

I'm going to make it a point to find 3 hours every week to write, if at all possible. I'll make sure that during those three hours I work on some fan fiction, not just my original stuff. I'm making outlines now of all my stories, that way I will know what's going to happen, and it should be faster to write when the time comes.

Right now I'm busy studying for bio. I have to have a 96 on my last 2 bio tests, and get at least a 98 on my lab practical (final) for me to get an A in the class. I really, really want an A. I've worked my ass off this semester for it. I'm so angry, because had I just studied for that first test the A would be a sure thing. Now, with three weeks left I'm killing myself to get that A. I will probably seriously cry if I get a B. It will end up being by a half a percent or something if I miss that A. Grrrr.

Ok, well, I just wanted to let you all know what was going on and why I'm not really updating anything. I'm planning ahead and trying to get my act together. I realized that if I want to get into a graduate program I need to worry about my GPA now. And boy, am I ever.

A word of advice to all high school students: Do not take a year off before college! I did, and while it motivated me to get back, I forgot sooo much. It totally wasn't worth it. I went from a 3.5 (?) in high school and NEVER studying to busting my ass to bring my GPA up in college. And all because I forgot so much stuff. Oh well, hind sight is 20-20.

Stress Test

2006-07-11T23:31:00.000-04:00

Today I took another stress test in Psych. This spans over life events in the past two years.

0-149 is a low stress life. Basically, you are not at all vulnerable to stress related illness.

150-299 is medium. You're vulnerable to stress related illness, but as long as you have good coping skills, you should be fine.

300+ is the dangerous zone. You need to practice relaxation skills on a daily basis. You are extremely vulnerable to stress related illness.

My score is 803.

I honestly don't feel that stressed though. I mean, yes, I feel burnt out and stressed, but I don't feel like I'm going to die from it or anything. My teacher said I really need to cut stress out of my life.

The thing is, there's no way to cut stress out. I mean, I can drop out of school and that would reduce some stress, but I love school.

A big factor in it was my husbands deployment. The thing about that is that I wasn't as... well, I handled it better than most wives. I did productive things. I went to school, I wrote. I redecorated the house, and I developed an unhealthy obsession with GG. My shoe collection mutliplied by at least 5. (I recently gave away 50 pairs of shoes and still have boxes and bags of shoes left.)

Maybe I'm massively stressed. But I think I'm coping pretty well. I contribute that to writing. Without writing, I'd probably be crazy by now.

New Stories

2006-07-10T17:58:00.000-04:00

Ok, so I finally got to work on those new stories I've been wanting to write forever.

I will not, I repeat not, be starting any new fan fictions until the old ones are completed. (At least some of them.) If by some chance you see a Trory out there called 100 Years and it's by me, it's not new. I've been working on it since probably February. I just don't have it finished yet.

I'm working on my original stories because that's what I'm inspired to do right now. I am not giving up fan fiction! I know some of you are probably alarmed, but don't be. I'm still writing & stewing over Rogan, Trory, PDLD, and of course, Seth and Rory. Oh, don't forget Jake & Rory! :) I will continue & eventually finish every single one of my fan fictions. Just not at this moment. I don't know how long it will take to get an update. I promise I'm not abandoning them though, ok?

Anyways, the point of this post was for you to all look over on the left side of the screen. You will see a new feature. It says "My Series'". Under it there is Love at Lejeune and Starting Over. Those are the new Series I'm working on. Feel free to check them out ok?

Oh... My... God! Too FUNNY!

2006-07-10T17:51:00.000-04:00

Do you want to laugh? I mean really, really laugh?

I was reading this story on FP today, and Lord, I was crying and falling out of my chair laughing. It's all funny, but especially chapter 3!

Regan, White, and the Seven Deadly Sins

Check it out.

My muse is back! My muse is back!

2006-07-10T00:49:00.000-04:00

Yep, that's right! After being MIA for entirely too long, Reginald has returned. All I can say is FINALLY!

So, I know what's going to happen in Hidden Past. I know what's going to happen in BBB. I even know what's going to happen in Conniving Trollops and Solutions.

But I'm not writing it yet.

Why not, you ask?

Simple. I need to develop my ideas to finish these fics before I start updating & get stuck again.

Well, that and I'm working on some original stuff now.

I'm not sure when updates will return. I'm really not. But what I am sure about is that no longer will I go weeks without writing. I have my notebook, and I have a mechanical pencil. This is how I brainstorm best. That way, once Reginald abandons me, I still have my ideas. They will be here, waiting for me to finish them.

I'm just sooooo happy that I can write again. Seriously, everything I've written in the past... well, at least the past month, maybe 6 weeks or longer, has totally sucked. I never have that problem! At least, not before. But I hated everything I wrote. At least now what I write won't make me cringe.

I honestly don't know what my problem was. It was like there was this wall in front of me. I would try to get past it, but every time I moved the step I would take simply moved me to the side, or another side, or sometimes backwards. I couldn't get past the wall. Now, all of a sudden, the wall was knocked down. It crumbled. It's the best feeling ever.

Anyways, I just thought you guys deserved to know that I am writing again.

Reading List (For FP.com)

2006-07-07T20:23:00.000-04:00

Since Reginald (my muse) has yet to return and inspire me I thought I'd post some stories I've been reading lately.

My comments about the stories are in italics.

Table for Two: She owns a restaurant, he's a rock star that owns the music scene. Will meddling friends and family get them together, or are their differences too much to overcome?

This is a really cute story. Sweet, funny, sad, and oh so intriguing.

Daddy's Little Girl: Hayden Palmer has no room in her life for more complications. So why on earth was she letting attractive, dizzy-eyed Adam Morrison take her breath away? Maybe Hayden has finally found that something more she's be looking for - in the unlikeliest of places.

This is perhaps one of the best stories I've read in a very long time. I like it more than most books I read. The chemistry between the characters zaps you, capturing your attention and leaving you wanting more. I couldn't stop reading it once I started. It's probably my #2 fav story at FP.com, and depending on what the epilogue is like, it may just move into the #1 slot.

He Punks Me Not: Your typical hot guy (Oz). Your psychotically desperate heroine (Riz). AND the devastatingly goodlooking ass who had to ruin everything (Stine).

So, being honest here, it took me a while to get interested in this one. The first chapters seem like mindless teenybopper obsessions, but really, it gets a lot better. I think the author's writing truly grew a lot during the time she wrote this. I like it a lot, and while the end disappointed me a bit, it was... complete. It fit the story.

My Personal Problem: Callia was just an "average" teenager, until she was kidnapped and found her family was anything but ordinary. An arranged marriage to her kidnapper, an organization, and other circumstances make her life a problem. A Personal Problem!

This was okay. Not much to say about it really. If you're bored and looking for something to read, it may interest you.

Seeing Through Tears: Anna develops a fear for romantic relationships due to her father’s constant abuse. So what happens when she unintentionally attracts the attention of a mysterious bad boy?

This has got to be my #1 favorite story on fiction press. It's emotional, thought provoking, and interesting. It made me laugh, it made me cry.

Reason and Romance: Adrian Blake is tired of looking for that perfect romance, but when she meets Alex Montgomery, she forgets all reason. And yet she can't forget he's her new stepbrother.

An amazing story. Totally cliche, yet this author makes it fresh and new. It has to be one of my top five favs at fp.com.

Ok, so hopefully this will keep you busy reading for a while. These aren't all my favs, just a couple I like.

Question to FF Writers

2006-07-04T09:10:00.000-04:00

Do you post your stories anywhere other than ff.net? I also post at Illusive and I have an account at BW&R, but mainly I just post at ff.net.

I have a couple soap boards I post different soap fics at, but that's only because we're probably the only Days Mason obsessed fans left and we congregate there.

So, my question to you is how many places do you post your fics? Why do you post them at other places? Are there any real benefits? (Such as do they attract a comparably larger audience of readers?)

I was invited to post them elsewhere, but I'm pretty happy being at ff.net. To me, it would be so much work to remember to update at other places as well. It's hard enough getting an update these days, but I want to see what your thoughts are.

I also noticed a few small fic boards allow you to post fics that aren't your own as long as you give credit to the writer. I don't really like that. I understand that it allows for a bigger audience of readers, but I don't think I would want my stuff posted somewhere I didn't know about it. Any thoughts on this as well?

BB Chapter 10 AN

2006-07-03T15:07:00.000-04:00

Due to time constraints I'm not responding individually to each review, but to a few questions in reviews and PM's.

I appreciate every review you guys gave me. Really, thank you.

Q. How can their families do this? Arranged marriages are illegal?
A. Yes, they are illegal. If Rory wanted to drop out of Yale, and go to community college and get a job at the Stars Hollow newspaper, well, then she could refuse to marry Tristan. The families control the cash. If she wants her education, she's saying "I do."

Q. Why do you take so long to update?
A. Because I have a life. I am in college, and I'm married to a Marine. I do my school work, I keep my house up, and I try to have something of a social life in there. When my husband is out of the country writing becomes a priority. When he's not, I have to concentrate on my life and marriage.

Q. What is the pairing?
A. Trory. Repeat after me- Trory. No, I'm sorry, this will not be a Rogan. It will not be a Trogan. It is a Trory.

Q. How long will this fic be?
A. No clue. Twenty-odd chapters sounds about right. At least. They need to bond. They need to be friends. Rory needs to grow. That can't be done in five chapters.

Q. Will your updates become more frequent?
A. Sorry, probably not until February (My husband leaves again in Feb). I will be taking several difficult courses this fall, and I always try to spend more time with him before he leaves.

Finally- An Update!

2006-07-03T15:01:00.000-04:00

Chapter 10 of BBB is finally posted!

Took me long enough!

I felt bad for not writing lately, so I just sat down and forced myself to write it. It's not one of my best, but it was a bit easier to write than I thought it would be.

I'm sorry for not posting here at my blog often lately. I've been sooo busy with school- and it seems it's just going to get harder. I am going to take between 6 and 7 classes this fall.

Two of them- math and Spanish, are awful subjects for me.

Did I mention Spanish is a night course?

I'm going to be in school for HOURS every single day, and then at night. It's going to suck. Really bad. But, this is what I get for dropping three classes last year.

Anyways, if I get inspired (don't hold you breath, I don't want deaths on my head) I'll work on another fic tonight. If not... well... hopefully soon.

Hey Guys!

2006-07-02T14:53:00.000-04:00

I am enjoying my break! I am feeling much better and not as mentally burnt out. I've been thinking about writing. Lol, I know, I know, thinking, not actually writing.

I'm not really sure when I'll have updates, maybe soon, maybe not. The important thing is I no longer feel like ripping out all my hair. That's always a plus.

I have a worksheet to do, a paper to write, and a test to study for by the time I go back to school. Oh, I also have to have my new school schedule ready.

Anyways, I hope you're all having a great weekend.

Flooding

2006-06-28T19:37:00.000-04:00

Oh. My. God.

I was in a flood today. It was the scariest thing of my life. I won't go into detail today, but I was trapped with my car for 4 1/2 hours. There were trucks that were almost completely submerged in water. It was so terrifying. I'll write more about it later, after I've actually relaxed a bit.

Good News... Bad News

2006-06-28T12:24:00.000-04:00

Good News: I'm getting inspired. My muse is starting to return a little.

Bad News: I still have total writers block for my fics.

Mainly, I am getting ideas for original stories. Do not panic! I am not going to stop writing my fics. I think I need to actually read a few of them to get back in GG mode. I didn't even watch GG last night. I mean, I have the DVD of the episode already (DVD recorders work miracles) and I was exhausted. Still, it's surprising because I almost always watch GG.

It's just the summer hiatus has me drawing no inspiration for the fics. I'm not going to put them on hiatus or stop writing them, though. Each and every one will be updated. I just don't know when.

I actually did get an idea for one of my GG fics earlier, but I didn't write it down, so it's gone. At least I'm starting to get back into writing a little. I hate not working on my fics or stories, but I just haven't been motivated to lately. Hopefully soon.

BlackBerry's and Contracts

2006-06-28T06:25:00.000-04:00

In a couple more months I get a new cell phone. With Sprint, I think it's every 18 months I get a $100 credit towards a new cell phone. I want a BlackBerry. I need a BlackBerry. Ok, so maybe it's not a life or death matter, but it will make my life easier, and they're sooo cool.

So, I'm looking at the ones Sprint offers. They're crap. Ok, maybe not crap, but not the ones I want, either. Just about every other cell company offers a lot of others, but oh no, not sprint. So now I'm going to pick between two I'm not terribly fond of.

I used to have Verizon, but when we moved here they weren't in the area. So, I changed. I called Cingular, but they refused to use a Power of Attorney for my husband since I wanted them in his name and he was in Iraq at the time. (Although legally they are obligated to accept them.) I figured, "hey, they don't want my business... fine." So I went to Sprint.

My service has been okay. Not great, not awful. I mean, I'm not complaining, except for the roaming charged. Which are insane. And the call-in customer service. I called in to add roaming to my phone for a certain amount each month, and the woman didn't even speak English. The people working at the Sprint stores in town are rude, too.

But other than that, I have not one problem. Until now. So now I'm left trying to decide if I'll renew my contract and get a blackberry I'm not overly in love with, (I mean, the one I want is about $500... but the one I'll probably get is about $400 with a $100 discount, making it $300. If I'm making a major purchase that will last 18 months, what's an extra $100?) or changing the service I'm okay with. Decisions, decisions.

The point of this post? Well, there isn't really one. I just felt like rambling on about it.

Soooo Tired

2006-06-27T06:34:00.000-04:00

I am exhausted this morning! I stayed up late working on a Bio take home test, and I'm not even half finished. It's due today. As soon as I get home I'm going to bed and sleeping for a few hours. Then I need to type up a 5 page paper for psych and I think I have a test tomorrow. Ugh. Back to school full force.

Thursday is my last day until next Weds. So that's cool. Two more days after today and then I get another break. I can't wait.

Anyways, I have bio lecture today, and that usually bores me, so maybe I'll write some ideas.

Sitting Through War (New Poem)

2006-06-26T08:14:00.000-04:00

Before you comment on this post, please read it completely. If you want to comment without reading it, at least read the last paragraph. I don't want someone bitching at me because they didn't read everything I wrote. But still, feel free to comment. Just read this before you chose to trample my opinion. ;)

I posted a new poem at FP. It's called Sitting Through War. Basically, it's my thoughts on what a lot of people do. This is a subject very close and important to me. I know a lot of non-military families/ people who sit down and watch CNN and start bitching about the war in Iraq. They may hear a story or 2 from someone in the military, but other than that they know nothing. Yet they ignorantly throw their fits.

If you don't support the war then that is your right. You are free to have your own opinion, and I support that right. It's what my husband fights for. It's what he's willing to die for. I am merely expressing my opinion. So please, don't be offended. My problem is with people who ignorantly oppose the war.

A lot of people simply see the bombs. They yell because our troops are dying.

Did you know that this war has cost us fewer lives than any other war we've ever fought?

Did you know that our troops are training the Iraq government to take over?

Did you know that we provide not only health care to their people when they need it, but also to their animals, since their animals are their lively hood? (Which helps them maintain self sufficiency, and boosts their economy).

Did you know that most of the Iraq people WANT us there? We provide them with jobs working on our "camps" over there. We pay them in American money. It's not much compared to what we make, but it is extremely high compared to what they would otherwise make.

We are helping over there. Yes, we've lost some men and women. It's the cost of war. 9-11 happened more than 4 years ago. Every single person in the military today joined or re-enlisted after 9-11. They knew there was a war going on. They chose to join. (Unless they signed a 6 year contract 5 years ago, then they would not have the option to opt out yet. I'm saying generally).

I've noticed a lot of people who sit and complain about our troops risking their lives. Well, that's their job. They knew when they signed on the dotted line that it was a risk. No one forced them to join. I've sat here at home while my husband was in Iraq. I worried, I cried, I went on with my life. Yet I still support the war. We are giving the Iraqi's a hope, a chance at life, at a future. I know my husband will be going back to war next year.

He missed our first anniversary. He missed Thanksgiving, Christmas, and Valentine's Day. He's going to miss my college graduation and my 21st birthday. Yet I continue to support the war. I support it because I know many, many men and women who place their lives on the line in Iraq, Kuwait, Pakistan, Afghanistan (sp?) and other countries. I support it because I've chosen to be informed about what goes on. I've done my research. I've asked questions. I've formed my own opinion.

My decision to support the war is not one I ignorantly chose. It is one I made after becoming knowledgable. I suggest you do the same. If after you become informed you do/still oppose the war, then that's your choice. I don't belittle that choice. I do, however, belittle the choice to ignorantly decide to oppose the war simply based on what you hear/ see on tv. Get informed.

Save Screeches House

2006-06-26T07:47:00.000-04:00

Remember Screech from Saved by the Bell? Well, his (Dustin Diamond) house is being foreclosed, so he is selling shirts & bricks to get the money.

Check it out.

Personally, I think it's pretty pathetic. There is no way I would every support this. I mean, there are so many worth while causes out there. Instead of paying $15 for a tshirt saying "I paid $15 to save Screeeches House" (Yes, I know there are three e's in that- it's his way of getting around copyrights.) I would much rather pay $15 and donate it to finding a cure for cancer, or trying to save Everwood. (By the way, that's a cause I support!)

At his site he talks about how they screw the working man over. I'm sorry, if he's a "working man" why is he asking for our money? I mean, I understand that money gets tight. But he's just working as a comedian. If that's not paying the bills, maybe he should get a real job. The working man has to, so why shouldn't he?

In closing, shit happens. Money gets tight. It happens to most people. The difference is that most people don't ask someone to buy a brick of their home for $1,000 or pay $20 for an autographed t-shirt.

I may add, that I think his idea is ingenius. It's capitalism. He's smart for coming up with this idea, but perhaps he should take some of that brain and creativity and take it to go find a job to pay his own bills.

What do you think?

Finally! An Update!

2006-06-25T23:06:00.000-04:00

I just posted chapter 4 of Conniving Trollops. It is not my best work, but I have no muse at the moment. I am in huge writers block on everything.

I only forced myself to write this because I promised you guys an update. I'm sorry there weren't more, but everything I've written has been complete and utter crap the past week.

I really won't be forcing myself to write to often. When it happens, it happens.

Anyways, I'm sorry for the lack of updates, but at least I got something out.

I am such an idiot!

2006-06-24T18:20:00.000-04:00

I was reading at fiction press, and I'm like 'geesh, the font is sooo small!' It took me forever to realize that at both ff.net and fp.net I can change the size & style of the font while I read! It's the B S A A A on the top right of the screen. Geesh! Much better!

Massive Writers Block/ Burn out

2006-06-22T15:35:00.000-04:00

I am trying to write... but can't really. So I went through some old work that was in note books, and I'm getting a bit of inspiration.

I will write and get at least a couple updates up before Monday. On what, I'm not sure. I really want to get moving on Hidden Past, but I'm stuck on the current chapter. I know what needs to happen, it's just a matter of getting there.

Saga is at a road block. I found some notes from it, and I realized that I have written myself into a corner with this chapter. What does that mean? Delete and start afresh. So far I have 8 pages for this chapter. I need to make a list of what's supposed to happen & write it. I'm sorry that you guys have been waiting for so long on this one. The tough thing is that an entire summer is one chapter. It's tough remembering to not draw out the beginning and rush the end. It's really tough not doing that. But I realized what I was doing, so now I'm rectifying the situation.

I have actually worked on some poetry. I haven't written poetry in years, but I got inspired this morning and wrote a poem.

Anyways, I'm enjoying the sleep. I really needed these days off school because I am so burnt out. Going year-round for the last year has really taken a toll on me. If it weren't for this long weekend I'd go crazy. Some time next month I'll take a mental health day off school, too. I try not to miss too much, but sometimes it's actually needed.

Piece or Peace?

2006-06-20T18:30:00.000-04:00

I just have a quick question for you all.

Is it:

a. I've said my piece.

or

b. I've said my peace.

That always drives me crazy. I think it's peace, but then again piece could also work. Any ideas?

Sorry for the Lack of Updates

2006-06-19T13:43:00.000-04:00

Hey everyone.

Sorry about the lack of updates lately. I'm finally getting over being sick. It's just a light cough now. I originally intended to update this weekend, but things happened and I got extremely busy. I'll be busy tonight & probably tomorrow trying to get my house in order. Redecorating is time consuming. Hopefully by tomorrow night I'll be finished.

No school Weds, Thurs, or Fri. That means I'll have time to update! YAY!

I plan on writing plenty this week, as long as my muse allows it. I won't force myself to write. When I start to do that everything I write turns out awful, and I start to hate working on my stories. I won't do that anymore.

I've been stretched so thin with so many different things going on and lately writing has become a chore, and I hate that feeling. I love to write; it's the way I get unstressed. But even that hasn't been helping lately.

Today in Psych we took stress tests. If you're over 130 you're really stressed. I was over 300. Let's just say I realized I need to prioritize a bit more. I've been sick, and busy, and going to school, and trying to write and do everything at once. I'm feeling completely over whelmed and burnt out. This happens from time to time to me. Hopefully, this week will take care of it.

So, Reginald (my muse) willing, I will update this week. I really do miss writing.

200 Posts

2006-06-17T19:10:00.000-04:00

Wow, I just checked the stats for this blog. This is my 200th Post!

Wow!

It wasn't that long ago I started this blog. It's crazy that 200 posts came so quickly. Thanks for reading my blog!

No Updates

2006-06-17T17:16:00.000-04:00

I spent all day today helping my friend move. I am sooooooooooo sooooooooooo tired.

Now that she's gone I have to get my house in order. She gave me a lot of her stuff that she was getting rid of, so I need to put them in new places in my house. First up is finishing the porch. We live next door to each other, and share a porch (we have townhouses). We both have tons of flowers, so she gave hers to me. Tomorrow I need to finish fixing the porch up.

I need to hang up a shelf in here and then put the new tv cabinet in here. Then I need to organize my kitchen and clean the living room from where I've had an 8 month old in the house the last few days.

Once that's done I need to track down another friend & threaten her life for my steam cleaner she borrowed a few weeks ago and never returned so I can clean my carpets.

First, I need to go soak in a tub. I am soooo exhausted. And sore. I honestly can't remember the last time I worked so hard.

A long story short: No updates this weekend. I have Weds, Thurs, Fri off school next weekend, I'll try to write then. Sorry.

Longest Day Ever

2006-06-16T23:50:00.000-04:00

I had the longest day ever. I'm helping my neighbor move out, and it was sooo much work. I also watched her 8 month old son, and wow, between the two I'm exhausted.

She's leaving tomorrow, so I may have a chance to write Sunday.

I just got done eating dinner, and now I'm going to crawl in bed. I'm sooooo exhausted.

LMAO! I am SUCH a blonde!

2006-06-15T19:06:00.000-04:00

Oh... my... God.

For the most part, I consider myself to be at least a semi intelligent individual. But dear Lord, do I ever have my moments!

I was just browsing around fictionpress looking at stories & such. I was like, 'hmmm... when I went to sign up a few months back rockrose (my ff.net sn) was taken. Let's see what the author has'. So I do. I read the profile.

I was like, huh... I used to be in Kenpo karate, also.

I was like, huh... cool, I like poetry.

Huh, that's my old email address.

LMAO! I have an account there and didn't even remember it! And poems uploaded, too! How damn dumb can one person be? Geesh.

So now I'm going to delete my new account & use my old one.

Update

2006-06-15T06:53:00.000-04:00

Hey!

I haven't had any time what-so-ever to write lately. I've been so busy with school & real life. I'm still sick & still tired.

But... I am feeling better. I don't have school for the next three days, so as long as I make it through a lecture on bio chemistry today I should have time to rest this weekend.

Next week I only have 2 days of school. They're giving us a mini summer break (Thank God). So, next week (Weds, Thurs, Fri, Sat, Sun) I should have plenty of time to catch up on my zzzz's and writing!

God, I miss writing! There is just no time lately, and I hate that. I mean, I could write during my classes, but honestly, I need to get good grades this semester.

I promise you that I am not giving up on my stories or anything like that. I just need some time to get better and get rested and find my muse. Hopefully, Reginald will be back by this weekend. Hopefully. I think getting a full night's sleep has a lot to do with it.

Anyways, I need to get ready for classes.

Hey Everyone

2006-06-13T14:34:00.000-04:00

Sorry I haven't updated anything lately. I have so seriously not been in the mood to do anything at all. I'm still sick, and school work has been piling up.

Today I had two tests. I knew I wouldn't be completely prepared for Bio if I studied for Psych, so I spent all my time studying for my bio test. I'm allowed to drop my worst test grade in psych, so that's why I did that.

I got a 94% on my bio test, and since I'm able to drop a grade my 100% average in psych is safe.

Anyways, I don't think I'll be writing tonight. I haven't had energy to do anything lately, and I have no inspiration what-so-ever to write right now. Don't worry, I'm not going on hiatus or anything like that.

I just need a bit of time to get healthy again. What I have has really been going around. My aunt and her daughter have it, and a friend of mine's husband is in the hospital with the same thing. I'm feeling better every day, but at night I feel like death. I'm giving it until this weekend; if it's not better by then I'll go to the doctors.

Anyways, I'm sorry for the lack of updates. I know I promised you guys some, but if I could write I would. I just feel so UGH. Sorry.

Ha Ha- Take that Java Junkies!

2006-06-11T16:00:00.000-04:00

Ok, so I was getting ready to go to bed when I realized I hadn't been to ask ausiello in a while, so I went there, and I read an interview with Lauren Graham.

I copy & pasted a bit of it here:

Ausiello: I'm not sure if you're aware of this, but the majority of fans I've heard from hated that Lorelai ended up in bed with Christopher in the finale.

Graham: I don't think people were probably thrilled — of course, all my references are 50 years old — when somebody shot J.R., you know? Oh my god, I'm 100! It stirs up your passion for what you would like to happen and for the characters you're interested in. And it's human. The thing I don't like on television is when somebody does something that makes absolutely no sense just for the shock of it. [The Lorelai-Christopher thing], to me, was such a long time coming. This was built into the story for a long time — that Lorelai didn't feel understood [by Luke] and they weren't communicating. [Christopher and Lorelai] have a connection and it made total sense to me, just given the story. To me, that's a satisfying season finale. I'm sorry if people were upset.

My Muse Has Left The Building

2006-06-11T15:36:00.000-04:00

Reginald (my Muse) has disappeared. Despite being sick I've attempted to write all day.

Attempted being the key word.

I can't write. It's just not happening. I must have tried to write something for almost all my fics, and nothing! I'm honestly not too sure why, either. I guess it could have something to do with the sneezing... or the coughing... or the sore eyes... or the head ache... or the stomach ache... or the...

Well, I think you get the point by now. The point being I am sick and am going to go to my nice comfy bed and lay down reading the Harlequinn romance books my husband bought me (he spoils me when I'm sick... I even convinced him chocolate chip cookies would help heal me.) and drink my hot tea and go to sleep.

Then tomorrow I'm going back to school and I will be studying like crazy. I have a psych test and a bio test on Tuesday. I think I have a test in Bio lab on Weds. I don't know, maybe I'll find time to update this week, but I wouldn't count on it. Then again, I do make time to write no matter how busy I am when Reginald whispers in my ear for me to update. So who knows.

Sick Still

2006-06-11T09:48:00.000-04:00

Hey everyone.

I am still sick, but my internet is working again. Actually, I'm sicker than I was the other day. Yesterday was better than Friday, but today I can't talk at all. I'm just sooo glad my husband is home. In January I spent about 3 weeks being very sick, and I was all alone. He is sooo sweet. He's making me hot tea right now, and he's cleaning the kitchen so I can rest.

I'm not doing a lot of writing. Well... I'm not working on any of the fics I should be. I worked on a Mason from Days fic because Rikki always makes me love the pairing. Even though whenever I have a Days fic going I only update it like, once every 3-4 months. Lol! I'm horrible.

Anyways, I also started a new PDLD. But, I have a new rule. To stop the madness of having so many fics going I will not post a new fic until I have at least 6 chapters written. That way there aren't long waits for updates. I started it yesterday and have 2 1/2 chapters written.

I worked a bit on Hidden Past and on BBB. For the life of me I can't remember what I have written. I'll probably work on both of them a bit today. I also want to get another chapter of Lost out. I know I said there would be another chapter of Conniving Trollops this weekend, but to be honest, that is a time consuming fic to write. Since it follows the storyline as closely as it does I have to research the episodes and think back to how everyone acted & such. Ugh. Time consuming + sick doesn't = updates. Not in my math anyway.

Oh, and about Everything Changes, I will update it! It is not abandoned! Right now it's just tough to write because I know what I want to do with it, it's just tough getting it there.

Internet's Not Working & I'm Sick

2006-06-09T12:53:00.000-04:00

My cable modem isn't working right. The cable co will have someone out next Friday to fix it. That means unless it suddenly decides to work correctly (which it's done before), I have no internet for 7 whole days!

But, I do have the school computers. Yay! That's where I am now.

I'll be writing at home and hopefully uploading the chapters to ff.net at school, ok?

I'm also sick. My husband wasn't feeling well this week, but he is fine now. He's had every shot known to man given to him by the military, so the guy won't even catch small pox, but here I am without any vaccines this year, and I caught what he had. So I don't feel well.

Chapter 2 of Lost is up!

2006-06-07T21:29:00.000-04:00

That's right- believe it or not I finally updated Lost! It only took me three months.

I have a pretty good idea what's going to happen in this fic, and I'm actually pretty excited to work on it. Tomorrow I have school, and after that I'll probably crash from exhaustion, but I'll try to get another chapter up this weekend.

Nilch, Nada, Nothin'

2006-06-06T19:15:00.000-04:00

Alright, so I haven't written anything today. Nilch, Nada, Nothin'. But, I am thinking.

Thus far, I have no new ideas for my current stories. However, I do have an idea for a one shot about Lorelai.

Saga hasn't been worked on in a few weeks. I know exactly what's going to happen, it's just finding time to work on it.

Always There is... not there. It's just not coming along. Why? Because I'm trying to decide which direction to take it in. Do you guys want a sequel? Or should I just have them ride off into the sun set after Logan exit's stage left? I have the sequel idea. It's there, it's brewing, it's ready. Just let me know.

Conniving Trollops should be out as soon as I have time to write. I know pretty much what will happen in the next chapter.

Hidden Past needs to be updated, I know. I'm just having trouble with the Jory/ Rogan aspect.

BBB will be the next fic I update!!!! I know you haven't had an update in over a month, so next time I update something, it will be BBB.

Needing You won't be out for a while. Why? It's hard to write. And I lost my outline.

Lost should really, really be worked on. Honestly, I just don't have time to work on it. I promise I will (eventually).

Everything Changes will be updated eventually. Most of the next chapter is written.

I'm sorry if I missed anything. I'm exhausted. I have a lab report to write. I have 2 tests to study for. I'm tired, and I have a house to clean. When I'm tired & stressed I get crabby, so I really, really need to get some sleep.

If I have any time to write this week, I promise I will. If not, I'll write this weekend.

Tired... So Tired

2006-06-05T07:48:00.000-04:00

I'm exhausted. I hate Monday's. Seriously, they are awful. The whole vicious cycle of waking up early starts all over again. Ok, ok, I know I sound pitiful. But still, I hate Monday's.

I doubt I'll get any writing done today. I haven't even been to my first class yet, but I already want to sleep. I'm pretty sure today's going to be a sleepy day.

Tomorrow I may get some writing done... not sure. Weds it's very doubtful, since I think I have a test Thursday. At least I have Friday, Saturday, and Sunday's off. Three day weekends are nice.

Fun in the Sun

2006-06-04T11:42:00.000-04:00

It is completed. Done. Ended. Fin.

Wow. I feel happy that it's completed, yet sad that it's really over.

I noticed a lot of people thought that chapter 9 was the ending. It wasn't! I personally hated chapter 9, but it needed to happen. Without it, the alt. ending (which is the Rogan ending) would never have happened. So yes, there are 11 chapters total to Fun in the Sun.

So, this is basically my thank you for reading, reviewing, and giving Fun in the Sun a chance. It was never supposed to take this long to write, but the real world kinda got in the way. Thanks for sticking around, though!

Fun in the Sun has been UPDATED!

2006-06-03T11:55:00.000-04:00

Yep, chapter 9 is up! The alt endings should both be up by tomorrow night. I'm just reading over them one last time, making changes, etc.

I would type out a long AN, with personal replies to reviews, but then I was thinking, would you guys honestly prefer me to do that, or would you rather me just go ahead and write something else? I figured I'll actually write today.

Happy reading!

FF.net won't let me upload!

2006-06-02T10:39:00.000-04:00

I'm done with chapter 9 for Fun in the Sun, and ff.net won't let me post it!! GRRRRR. So now I have to wait. This is sooooo frustrating.

Weekend Plans

2006-06-01T18:56:00.000-04:00

My weekend has officially started! I only go to school Monday-Thursday, so I have 3 days off! YAY!

Fun in the Sun is written. The last three chapters are mostly done. I'm just doing last minute editing & such... but it will be up this weekend. It's sad that this is really it. The fic is over. Wow. Oh, and it does have both a Trory & a Rogan ending. Personally, I'm partial to the Rogan ending, which is surprising, because I was rooting for Trory in this... but hey, that's the way the cookie crumbles, right?

I may be writing a one shot based on a challenge this weekend. I'm not sure. If I get inspired I may.

Also, I want to start an original story. I already know the plot, so that's may be done. Who knows.

I took my tests. I got a 102 on my psych test. A 4/5 on my Bio lab, and 80 on my Bio test. I can't complain. I have another test Monday. Eek!

So basically, I'm enjoying the weekend before it's back to studying.

Lorelai did NOT cheat!

2006-05-31T23:02:00.000-04:00

Alright, so I'm wasting valuable study time (tomorrow I have my last of three tests in two days, thank God!) but this needs to be said:

Lorelai did NOT cheat on Luke!

She told him it was then or never. They were either getting married or they weren't together. Ok, so she didn't take the ring off. But really, in that state of mind are you really thinking right?

I hate how the whole breakup is being pinned on her by JavaJunkies. My thing is that Luke's been an ass the past season. Or at least since April came into the show. So now, because she grows a backbone and decides she can't live her life listening to everything Luke needs/wants instead of what makes her happy, she's a bad person & it's her fault?

Really, where is the logic?

Top Five Dumbest Things I've Done This Week

2006-05-30T22:39:00.000-04:00

1. Study for the wrong test the night before a different test.
2. Study for the wrong test the night before a different test.
3. Study for the wrong...

Ok, do I really need to continue typing or do you get the point? That's right, me, in all my fricking wisdom, studied for the wrong test! Rather than worrying about molecules & crap I should have been worrying about conversions. Sigh.

So now, I have a test in 13 hours that I'm not ready for. At all.

Guess who's gonna need coffee? That's right. Me.

GG Survey

2006-05-30T14:53:00.000-04:00

I was just bored and figured I'd post this. If you fill it out let me know the answers! I'm interested to see what everyone thinks.

1. Who would you like Rory to be with? Logan

2. What's your favorite season of GG? Five

3. Who would you be more afraid to have as an enemy: Paris or Emily? Paris is much scarier. If she were my enemy I'd sleep with one eye open.

4. Would you rather have to deal with Paris or Michele? Paris

5. Would you rather eat Sookie's cooking or Luke's? Sookie's

6. If you could make one large change to the show, what would it be? Tristan would show up at Yale freshman year.

7. Would you rather live next door to Kirk or Taylor? Why? Taylor. Property values must be high in his part of town, because he's so strict about things.

8. LDB: Fun or Dumb? Fun!

9. Finn & Colin: Loveable or annoying? Loveable!

10. The breakup: Luke's fault or Lorelai's? Luke's!

Solutions Chapter 8 Long AN

2006-05-30T01:25:00.000-04:00

Wow! I am soooo sorry for the long wait! Two months! I feel awful for making you wait so long! This chapter just would not come together. I'm not at all pleased with it, it was really forced. But, at least it's something. Anyways, I figured I'd respond to your reviews.

Citygirl: Thanks for the review! While Shira & Mitchum certainly aren't going to miraculously be happy with the situation, nothing will break up Rogan in this.

Cocacola29: Thanks! I figured after a chapter of fighting, I needed more of a mellow chapter, so chapter 8 is calmer.

Primesetter31: Thanks! I really wanted Rory to finally put them in their place for a while.

Justine260: Yes, I agree they do! And I'm sure they'll be going out of their way to let it be known they are not pleased with this.

Brown-eyed-beauty87: Thank you! I figured it was time Rory said her peace.

Zetaphi7: Thank you!

JoJo: Thanks! I thought about adding that, but I figured Rory needed to save a little ammunition, just in case there is a later confrontation. Possibly a more public one? Hmm...

astragail: Thank you! I loved your comment!

fox24: Yeah, they are evil in this.

central-gurl101: Thanks!

Hopes2High: Thank you! Sorry I didn't update quicker!

riotgirllina: Thank you for the review! And I'm not so sure about the whole acting like it's okay... (that's a hint for future chapters)

melako17: Thank you!

hmmart: Thanks!

shotswithMrsKim: Thanks! I hate it when she doesn't stand up for herself, too. I figured being raised by Lorelai she would have more backbone.

LeoAngelDust: Thanks! That's exactly what I intend on doing. There won't be a lot of drama for Rogan as a couple. I intend to have them be a very, very strong, together couple in this. (Oh, and happy, too!)

genevra: Thanks! No, they're certainly not all done, confrontation wise.

spinaround: Thank you!

mrmp: Thanks!

calvira89: Thank you.

Southerngirl26: Thanks!

Looking for Someone to help with a fic...

2006-05-29T23:39:00.000-04:00

Ok, I have a request. Let me clarify this before I begin: I am not looking for a beta.

What I am looking for is, occasionally, I like to have someone read a chapter or a fic before I post it. Just basically to get an idea of whether or not they like it. Maybe bounce an idea off of this person, or get a few suggestions if I'm stuck on a chapter.

I do not want this person to edit my fics, or proof read them or anything like that. And it won't be with every chapter or every fic.

For instance, when I was posting Blurred Lines, I almost didn't post it. I wasn't sure if anyone would like it. I honestly thought it was one of the worst things I had written recently. Turns out, everyone loved it! See what I mean?

I have several of these people for my Days fics, but I don't ever write them anymore! And while one of those people would still do it for my GG fics, it's better to have them actually watch the show I'm writing about. It helps. I'd also be more than happy to return the favor, and do the same for the other person, if they write fics.

So, if you're interested, drop me a line. My email is grniys@msn.com.

Working on Fics...

2006-05-29T19:55:00.000-04:00

Ok, so I finally got some writing done.

I updated Fun in the Sun last night. Three more chapters left. I decided to do an alternate ending for it. Most people seem okay with that. One reviewer didn't like the idea, but too damn bad. I like it.

Also, with very, very few of my fics I figure out how they're going to go before I start writing them. I've been told that apparently that's the wrong way to write them. Un-fucking-believable. I've been writing fics for approx. 6 years, and have never been told I write them wrong before. I get an idea, I sit at the keyboard, and I write. And it creates itself. My advice to that reviewer is if you don't like the way I write, then stop wasting your time by reading it.

Anyways, moving on. Another chapter of Fun in the Sun is almost done. Hopefully, I can get both endings done tonight, and I'll post them throughout the week.

I finally started working on my Trory, 100 years fic. I mentioned it in the Spring. It will be relatively short... I'm not posting it until I get it all finished.

I'm really regretting taking summer school. I want nothing more than to work on fics all summer long. But, of course, if I didn't, I'd die of too much school this fall & next Spring. I'm beginning to think I'm crazy. Year round? Ugh. Law school after college? Hello, call the men with the white coats now, please.

Seriously, next summer needs to be taken off. So I can veg. De-age. De-stress. Live.

Ok, enough of my insane rambling. If I get Fun in the Sun finished tonight, I'll either work on Solutions or Everything Changes. Maybe both. Who knows.

Hana Yori Dango

2006-05-28T20:27:00.000-04:00

Are there any Days or Anime fans here? Several years ago there was a Phloe Days fic, BBF- Boys Before Flowers. It was based on an anime called Hana Yori Dango. I miss that fic. It was one of the classics, IMO. One of the first great fics I read.

Well, now I'm finally ordering some of the volumes. I'm really looking forward to watching them.

Note about Lost

2006-05-28T17:19:00.000-04:00

Ok, so I'm contemplating what to do with this fic. I can make it a short fic (10 or less chapters) or I can make it a really, really long fic (I have an outline for 40 chapters). What I think I'll do is work on it, and make it about 10 chapters. Eventually, once Fun in the Sun, Always There, and Hidden Past are finished, I can start the 40 chapter version, which I'll give a new title to. So, I just need to re read the first chapter, and rewrite the ones I have finished, and decide what to do. Then that will be that.

Chapter 3 AN for Conniving Trollops

2006-05-28T15:48:00.000-04:00

Thank you all for reading! The third chapter is now up! I am really enjoying writing this fic. It's fun, and it's different. I like getting into Shira & Emily's heads a bit, and playing around. I really see a lot of similarities in both women, and thought it would be great to have them join forces. I'd like to thank you all for the reviews. I'll be addressing specific questions below, so read on, and see your answers (from both chapters 1 & 2).

IMPORTANT: I've added spoilers for future chapters in with review responces. They are in bold.

Chapter 1 Reviews/ Questions:

Thank you to: Andrea Kamille, Spin Around, and Finnlover for their reviews! They are appreciated!

ShotswithMrsKim: Thank you. I'm going to make Emily just as guilty as Shira in this. Honestly, I can see her doing something like this.

LindsEmo: Thanks! The title is actually from the epi where Lorelai & Emily go off to a spa together. The lipstick shade is Vicious Trollop. I thought Conniving Trollop would be a good title, and fitting!

SabineHolterman: Thanks for your review. I really don't hate Mitchum. And in this, I don't think he's really intentionally trying to hurt Rory. He's just looking at it like he's protecting his family & his empire. None of the characters really think they're doing anything wrong.

Charming-angel291: Thanks for the review! There will be more Rogan in future chapters. I'm sort of working up to it. Also, it will follow aspects of the show, but not the show itself. It will branch off to its own thing in a few chapters.

riotgirllina: Thanks for the review! I totally intend for Rogan to be happy in this fic... after all, ingnorance is bliss. This won't entirely follow the show, though it will in some aspects for a few more chapters at least. This is basically a what would have happened if...?

Chapter 2:

Thanks to: Finnlover, spinaround, and lifeisconfusing for their reviews! They are appreciated!

Precious421: Thank you for your honesty. I don't really see Emily as being vindictive in this. I think she's just doing what she thinks is best... even if it's not, and she's going about it the wrong way. This will be a pretty evil fic as far as Emily & Shira go, but i do intend for Rogan to be happy in it. Just remember, I like happy endings.

ShotswithMrsKim: Thanks for the review! The setting is different for the confrontation that it was on the show. It's right after Rory moves in with Emily & Richard. She's not in the DAR yet, and she hasn't planned the party- yet!

Riotgirllina: Thanks! Yes, they're evil. They fic will somewhat follow the show, but eventually branch to it's own thing.

Sweet-little-Devil-One: Really? I kinda like her... (at least in this).

pappaslittlecj: Thank you for the review. I'm making them coldhearted because I can really see this having happened. I don't think it's a matter of hurting Lorelai. I think in Emily's opinion, Lorelai is self destructive, and that she's doing what's best for Rory at this point. Lorelai will come into play in a while, but not the way you expect! I'm seriously to the point of doing a happy dance with that... I love what I have planned for Lorelai! I think back to Wedding Bell Blues. Emily took matters into her own hands, thinking she was helping. Is this really any different?

coffeeaddict1515: Thanks! As for the Rory thing... I have something planned. You may or may not like it. I promise though, Rogan will be happy!

PyramidHead316: Wow! And the gold metal goes to you for the longest review ever! I really think you'll like what I have in store for Rory and Logan. As for Lorelai, I'm not so sure you'll be happy with my evil plans. But I really appreciate your review!

WOW! Dear God that was a lot of typing!

Why I love Fan Fiction

2006-05-27T23:00:00.000-04:00

I love fan fiction. I really do. I've been writing it for about 6 years now. (I've been at ff.net for about 5) I don't see myself ever not writing it. Ok, yes, I'll spend more time on original stuff, and my own stories, and I may stop writing fics for the shows I do now, but I don't see myself ever quitting completely.

When I first heard about fan fiction I was obsessed with Passions. I watched the first episode, and was a faithful viewer for the first couple years. I was at the NBC Passions message boards (I don't even know if they're still around) and I heard about Coffeerooms. My old SN there was JavaPrincess. I started reading Ethan & Theresa fics, and Miguel & Kay fics. I was hooked! I completely fell in love with fan fiction. I started writing a fic, and then branched out to Days fics on ezboards. I met some of the best online friends I've ever had there. I am still in touch with one of them. To this day, even though I rarely ever write a Days fic, I get first glimpses at her stuff, and she will even beta my stuff for a different show.

Over the years I've taken hiatus' and left fics unfinished. That doesn't change the fact that I love fan fiction. No matter what happens in my real life, I always have those characters there to play with. I can go back in time on Days and put Mimi & Jason together. I can make Tristan & Rory fall in love during season one. I can get things off my mind, and create something at the same time.

Recently, I've heard a lot of former fan fic writers complaining about fan fics. Saying that it's a waste of time to use other people's characters, or bitching about someone else's writing skills. There's this one reviewer who, no matter what, bitches about something to EVERYONE they review. I've had flamers over the years, and I've had people who trust in my writing, and know that no matter what sucky turn I write, I'll make it all better.

I think everyone should take a moment to remember why they write fan fiction. Or why they write at all. For me, it started with an idea in my head. And that was that. God, I remember writing those AWFUL scripts. Thank God I only did that like, once.

The point is, everyone starts somewhere. For me, it was as a 14 year old girl with too much time on her hands. Was I a good writer when I started? NO! Am I now? That's debatable. You can make your own judgements. Just go to my ff.net account, and read one of my earlier stories... a So Weird or a Days or Passions fic from years ago, and note the improvement.

What really, truly pisses me off is when people make fun of fan fic. Someone will write a fic, and then decide "Oh, I'm too good for this, I need to be writing my OWN stuff." Yeah, that's fine, but don't say you're too good for fan fic. I mean, there are so AWESOME writers out there that only write fan fic. And there are some AWFUL writers out there that write their own stuff. It just truly irks me when people get all serious about it, or write it off.

For instance, one reviewer (Who has no fic of their own up at ff.net mind you!) bitches to EVERYONE about their fic. The "reason" for this is because this person takes writing very seriously. I think this person should go screw off. I'm all for constructive criticism. I love it! It has helped me immensly. But there's a line.

I love fan fics because they gave me my start. I've always loved writing. Always. The thing is, my family really wasn't ok with me spending time writing. They don't want me being a writer. I was always pushed to be a lawyer. The irony? I'm an English major, but intend to go to Law School after I get my English Degree. Fan fics gave me growth as a writer. They've given me practice. Not to mention, they were really my "life line" while my hubby was in Iraq. I would have gone crazy thinking all the time. I would have started smoking, but I don't want cancer. So I started writing again.

I guess the things I say keep going on in circles, and that's not good. Sorry about that. I'm just really... annoyed right now. Annoyed because people think they're too good for fan fics. (To them I say bite me!) Annoyed because new writers (who clearly state that they are writing their FIRST EVER fan fic) are belittled and told never to write again. Annoyed because people seem to have forgotten why they love fan fic.

In closing, I ask you this: Why do you write fan fic? Why do you love it? How long have you been writing it? Do you even remember these answers? If not, take a moment, think about it. And just... remember why fan fic is so great.

All right, now if I can clear the crowd a bit, I'll gladly step off my soap box and allow the throwing of tomatoes to begin.

Finally! Working on Saga!

2006-05-27T00:30:00.000-04:00

Yes, it's true- I'm finally working on Saga! I wrote about 2 pages tonight. Not a lot, I know, but it's really setting the story up for the rest of the chapter. I have 8 pages right now.

Anyways, I also have the next chapter of Conniving Trollops done. It's all written in my notebook, I just need to type it out.

I know what will happen in the next chapter of Solutions, thank God! It has taken me long enough to figure it out!

Updates should come later this weekend!

New Must-Read Fic List!

2006-05-25T21:36:00.000-04:00

I decided to post a list of some of my new fav fics, or just some that I find interesting.

Trories:

Hotel Paper: When Tristan comes back into Rory's life during the summer she spends with Emily in Europe, Rory tries to deal with the mess she's made with Dean back home and her growing friendship with Tristan.

Breakdown in the Blitz: While working at the hospital, Rory gets a surprise...never would she thought that star quarterback Tristan DuGrey would be paying her a visit, coming in on a stretcher.

Undercover Love: It was Officer Tristan Dugrey’s first undercover mission. To uncover the drug lord of private school Chilton. Nothing was going to get in his way of completing this mission...Trory AU

The Truth Behind The Lies: Trory, Tristan had been out of society's eyes for years, he returns and Rory falls for him. will he let her into his life or should she have never gotten involed to begin with?

A Game of Chance: Futurefic. Maneuvering a remote control and being on Headline News is the least of the worries Rory and Tristin have to face on the day they actually reunite. Stranger things have happened after a six year hiatus! TRORY. Rating due to language.

Run: AU. Rory Gilmore’s life takes a tragic turn when her Mother dies in a car accident. She ends up moving in with her father, his new wife, and her stepbrothers and sister.

Love is a Battlefield: Christopher Hayden, is a dangerous mob boss. Edward DuGrey, is a well known judge. Edward has been trying to put Chris in jail for years. But when Rory,transfers to Chilton and meets Tristan that’s when the real trouble starts. TRORY! AU

Rogans:

A New Life Calls: Logan is raised by his mother in Stars Hollow, unaware of who his father is. Rory and Logan grow up as childhood best friends and gradually become closer. What happens when Logan discovers who he truly is?

I Won't Back Down: What if Rory and Logan had met while at prep school? A new way for their story to develop. Sophie!

Lost & Found: Lonliness Knows Their Name: The love between Rory and Logan was lost many years ago. Although, Logan is now Mike, and looks a lot different, Rory somehow is attracted to this Mike. The love that was once lost will soon be found. (This one's strange, but a good strange.)

Ok, well, happy reading!

School Sucks, but Long Weekends Rock!

2006-05-24T14:36:00.000-04:00

Grrr! I really, really hate my bio class. It's so... frustrating. Anyways, I won't have time to update anything tonight. I have a lot of abnormal psych stuff to do for a presentation/ discussion tomorrow... I'm giving a lecture to the class on Cognitive Theory of Abnormal Psychology, so I need to prepare for that. It's a lot of work, so I'll be busy.

The good news: Tomorrow is Thursday. I go to school Monday- Thursday. I don't have school Monday. So.... 4 day weekend!!!!!! YAY!!!! :) Talk about exciting. (Can you tell I'm regreting this whole summer school thing?)

Ok, to be honest, the only fic I've been working on lately is Conniving Trollops. I know a lot of people aren't sure what to think of it. I love writing it. I wrote about a page or so at school today during classes. It's so fun, and new. I don't have to worry about making it different from someone else's story, because there are no other ones like this. It's a lot of fun writing Emily & Shira as evil friends... it's just... fun! LOL.

I have SOOOOO much planned for this story. But, I know, I need to work on my other fics, too. I will, I promise! I have a page & a half written for Fun in the Sun. As soon as I find my notes for it, I'll finish it. I actually wrote a scene for this chapter months ago, like 2 weeks after I started the fic, so I know what's going to happen. Now if I can only find my notes!

Fun in the Sun is really going to starting winding down. I have this chapter, then another one, and then either one or two more. That's it. So like, 3-5 chapters more. I really should just sit down this weekend and write & write & write until I finish it.

Always There is being difficult. I don't know what to write. I'm trying to think about how to get rid of Logan. (And no, I'm not killing him off, as per some of your suggestions!) I need to decide if I want to keep it going after Logan's gone, or just take a bow & end it. I honestly only planned it out to be until Logan left. I don't know. What I do know is that Lucas did not get her pregnant in the locker room. Too cliche.

HOWEVER: If everyone wants me to continue writing Always There, I know what the story line will be for the later chapters or sequel or whatever. There are actually two different directions I can go. This is the thing that sucks about not having a beta. I don't have a sounding board for ideas. I don't want to give away the potential storyline to everyone, but I also don't want a beta. I've only allowed one person to read over my stories & make suggestions before they're posted, and that's how it's gonna stay.

I will say this though, if I continue Always There, happiness won't come easily to Lucas & Rory.

So, let me know. Should I continue it (I mean after the next couple chapters. I would never completely abandon this fic)? End it (in a couple chapters)? Write a sequel?

New Chapter of Conniving Trollops!

2006-05-24T06:26:00.000-04:00

I posted chapter 2 of Conniving Trollops. I started on chapter 3 a little already. I think it will have some Rogan in it.

Anyways, I know I need to work on my other fics. I've just been so exhausted lately I haven't had the energy to. Don't worry though, updates will come soon, I promise!

7th Heaven's Coming Back for an 11th Season!!!!!

2006-05-22T07:35:00.000-04:00

YES!

Here's the CW fall line up!

Personally, I thought the "series finale" sucked. I mean, there was that whole thing with Simon at the end... it was way to open ended. I told my husband it may be back on next season (I heard it from Michael Aussielo's Podcast) and when I said I hated the last epi, he's like, "Well, if it's back on next season, that's why they wrote it that way. To give a storyline for that."

It's funny, we were just discussing that this morning in the car. Anyways, I'm happy. Too many good shows are ending at once. I mean, Will & Grace, Charmed, That 70's Show.

Seriously, if next season GG goes away for good, I'll be bawling. I spend years watching these shows... and poof, they go bye bye. It makes me really happy that 7th Heaven has one more year.

Did anyone else watch Charmed last night? It was a great ending, I thought. Perfect for the show. And the little girl at the end, the way she closed the door? So like Pru! Oh, and best line in the entire episode? "Uncle Coop!" LOL! I died laughing when I heard that!